hmmm
who would know that ill be back to blogging here. it's been a while. since i blogged. too lazy, too tired.speaking of tired, i am tired of a lot of things. of being in r/s that goes nowhere.
i miss some people. sabariah rashid. darius. rasyidi. but yet i make excuses to stay at home. well not exactly make excuses, but just...i dunno.
this few days, ive been feeling really down. especially at work. i just dun have the will to work. work makes me feel miserable. not sure what it is. you know, when you have this moment where you talk to urself? i do that all the time. and i ask myself. what's wrong? nothing seems rite. i dun lit up with all the answers i gave myself. music no longer cheers me up. sigh
you know, i think dreams are the biggest feelings *player*. dreams as in those you have when you sleep. It can make me feel so sad at one time and feel so loved in another. i think mayb thats why ive been feeling so depressed. dreams makes me feel and experience something that i cannot get in reality. not yet i hope. it makes me yearn for that happiness. that tranquility. anyhoo. maybe its just not the time yet.
or maybe its just the start of school that im putting on my serious mode.
whatever it is, at the end of the day, i don't feel like doing anything. if anything, i just wanna stay home. sigh.
Lyrics | Death And All His Friends lyrics
Tuesday, December 05, 2006
hmmm
its me all abt me now. ive got to loosen up. too uptight. n ive gt to forgot abt all this. there r so many things to think abt.
no more minor minor things. chant this. chant chant chant chant chant.
let go of urself. hmmmm.
its me all abt me now. ive got to loosen up. too uptight. n ive gt to forgot abt all this. there r so many things to think abt.
no more minor minor things. chant this. chant chant chant chant chant.
let go of urself. hmmmm.
Tuesday, October 24, 2006
its hari raya. well the first day, wld like to wish the muslim a selamat hari raya, with this, i would like to ask for forgiveness for words that ive said, for the things ive done if in anyway it offended or wronged you.
went out with 05/06 guys. had fun. still wacky as ever. if only aishah was arnd den it wld be a complete circle. for me at least. hmmm it was only a year ago. time flies really fast.
dee's birthday was on deepavali. celebrated it earlier on with just him and me. but i joined his family's celebration as well, baked him an oreo cheesecake. din haf much faith in the cake but it turned out just fine. thank god. well i enjoyed dat evening.
hmm and as for weiyin's bday, im sorry i missed it. happy belated bday to u.
hmm. ive lost touch in alot of things. my architecture skills. and etc... i think its time i relearn everything. my sis had dreams of my late mum crying, well ive not been a filial daughter. i should pray more... at least for her. and of cos. read entries on my aunt abt my grandma. yeah my grandma was an important figure in my life. she defined me who i am now.
i have plenty more to say... but wats der to share rite? its my tots, i just cant pen it down. well im working tmr...
i made mistakes. and i realised that no matter how many sorrys i say and no matter how many times the other party says its okay, things cant just be the same. words were said, feelings were hurt, its irreversible. and u think to urself. why are things so complicated. its impossible to be free with wat u say, to be democratic and to be liberal. you watch wat u say to be democratic or liberal, to appear them... hmmm...and den ur not urself.
went out with 05/06 guys. had fun. still wacky as ever. if only aishah was arnd den it wld be a complete circle. for me at least. hmmm it was only a year ago. time flies really fast.
dee's birthday was on deepavali. celebrated it earlier on with just him and me. but i joined his family's celebration as well, baked him an oreo cheesecake. din haf much faith in the cake but it turned out just fine. thank god. well i enjoyed dat evening.
hmm and as for weiyin's bday, im sorry i missed it. happy belated bday to u.
hmm. ive lost touch in alot of things. my architecture skills. and etc... i think its time i relearn everything. my sis had dreams of my late mum crying, well ive not been a filial daughter. i should pray more... at least for her. and of cos. read entries on my aunt abt my grandma. yeah my grandma was an important figure in my life. she defined me who i am now.
i have plenty more to say... but wats der to share rite? its my tots, i just cant pen it down. well im working tmr...
i made mistakes. and i realised that no matter how many sorrys i say and no matter how many times the other party says its okay, things cant just be the same. words were said, feelings were hurt, its irreversible. and u think to urself. why are things so complicated. its impossible to be free with wat u say, to be democratic and to be liberal. you watch wat u say to be democratic or liberal, to appear them... hmmm...and den ur not urself.