how much i miss skool. the melayu boleh gang and the bubble tea gang. combine these two, you get 'see you there' gang. the other gang is of cos the vroom vroom gang eh. always on the go. haha my first yr and the 3rd yr was the most memorable one. the studio and the lab. yr 2 was just some super fast phase that i believe we had to go thru quickly to get to 3rd year.
to booba and aish. i miss our time together in skool. the pavillion. running away, jus not to see the lecturers cos we had nth to show to them. how much time flew past us without us realising it.
how crazy we cld get. with shereen, its double the kecohness. how each of us were there to lend a listening ear to each other. our woes and happiness. its something i can nvr forget. and here again, im working with u fiza. which im really happy abt. u nvr failed to bring a smile to my face and thats the only consolation i have working in archi company.and i secretly hope we can still work together till of cos we get married or watever lah.
i have nothing much to say abt the guys but nevertheless u guys too were one of the reasons y schools were fun. the stupid jokes and endless comments during our lunch time. rem, our lunches? where nasir wld just diss any girls or guys he thinks were nt up to his taste. the ganguro girl game. the www.fhm.com webby. arrr.. all those memories. these things can nvr be replaced again, but to be kept as memories. i din really hung out with guys. more to the girls but malik is always with us(me,fiza n aish). cos he was our grp leader. *grin* haha and so called our charlie and my part time bf. and my so called tiff with hafidz. im glad its over. dat im much more sensible now. life's too short for grudges. u noe. in short i love you guys. and im glad u guys were part of my growing up life. *smiles* i made alot of frens when im yr 3, basically becos im single again and it gave me the freedom to make frens. and then came along matin..arman..rush.. the main guys in my close that im in close contact with. oh.. n khairullah..helmi.. haha nice peeps.
ive alot more to say but i'll just keep in short till i have more time to blog.
and nasir. again. take care. issit safe to say i love you? haha u were a gd fren. and u r still one. despite watever sarcastic remarks or anything. i look up to u like ur one big bro. in a way lah.
dunno y. i respected u the way u are. *smiles*
Thursday, July 28, 2005
graduation day was fantastic. i miss every single of them. nasir. i gonna miss u. somehow.
just gonna pray for ur safety there ya and take care of urself. hah! cant wait for mon. *smiles*
hmmmm i've gt lots of things on mind. but somehow i forgot bout them... so how? lol
niway. i had this weird vague drm. i saw this guy. cant see his face. i noe he has black hair. lean. tall. fair. haha dat's all. but it felt gd hanging out with him. i cant remember hw he look like. very vague. maybe dat's y i woke up late today. hmmm...forgot to mention this to booba.
aishhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. heh.
everything else is weird. n beautiful. *winks*
Bad Day - Daniel Powter. (for booba n daph)
Where is the moment we needed the most
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
They tell me your blue skies fade to grey
They tell me your passion's gone away
And I don't need no carryin' on
You stand in the line just to hit a new low
You're faking a smile with the coffee to go
You tell me your life's been way off line
You're falling to pieces everytime
And I don't need no carryin' on
Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and
you really don't mind
You had a bad day
You had a bad day
Well you need a blue sky holiday
The point is they laugh at what you say
And I don't need no carryin' on
You had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and
you really don't mind
You had a bad day
Sometimes the system goes on the blink
And the whole thing turns out wrong
You might not make it back and you know
That you could be well oh that strong
And I'm not wrong
So where is the passion when you need it the most
Oh you and I
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
You've seen what you like
And how does it feel for one more time
You had a bad day
You had a bad day
just gonna pray for ur safety there ya and take care of urself. hah! cant wait for mon. *smiles*
hmmmm i've gt lots of things on mind. but somehow i forgot bout them... so how? lol
niway. i had this weird vague drm. i saw this guy. cant see his face. i noe he has black hair. lean. tall. fair. haha dat's all. but it felt gd hanging out with him. i cant remember hw he look like. very vague. maybe dat's y i woke up late today. hmmm...forgot to mention this to booba.
aishhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. heh.
everything else is weird. n beautiful. *winks*
Bad Day - Daniel Powter. (for booba n daph)
Where is the moment we needed the most
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
They tell me your blue skies fade to grey
They tell me your passion's gone away
And I don't need no carryin' on
You stand in the line just to hit a new low
You're faking a smile with the coffee to go
You tell me your life's been way off line
You're falling to pieces everytime
And I don't need no carryin' on
Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and
you really don't mind
You had a bad day
You had a bad day
Well you need a blue sky holiday
The point is they laugh at what you say
And I don't need no carryin' on
You had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and
you really don't mind
You had a bad day
Sometimes the system goes on the blink
And the whole thing turns out wrong
You might not make it back and you know
That you could be well oh that strong
And I'm not wrong
So where is the passion when you need it the most
Oh you and I
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
You've seen what you like
And how does it feel for one more time
You had a bad day
You had a bad day
Sunday, July 24, 2005
today went well.
i enjoyed my day. okay. i kind of forgot i did today. it seemed so long.
had tuition. went to get my graduation tics(syukur alhamdulillah got. if not tmr i cant go to work) haha and den got back home. help with cleaning the room. slpt for awhile. helped abit in the kitchen. and den went jogging. folded my clothes. iron my clothes for tmr and voila. here i am. seems long rite? of cos there are lil things inbetween dat i did dat i dun think needed to be mention. heh
i feel fulfilled today. don't know y.
haha and my uncs n my aunts keep teasing me. with something that i obviously do not have. haha kept saying im always out with my bf, meet my bf lah, talk to on the fone wif my bf(where it had been only the girlies and my sis). and i kept saying dat i do not haf one and yet they persistently teass me non-stop. are they bugging me to get a bf? hmmm*thinking* haha watever it is. it's all good. all these are just jokes i guess. makes life more interseting and happening. heh. bluek.
life been good. i can only thank GOD. o well. smiles always k. muacks.
tho not all of u will read this entry of mine, there r a couple things that i think you all deserve to know. wat someone said is, dun miss the oppurtunity to tell the ones have hw much you care n love them...
to my dearest fellow team mates and juniors..
i enjoyed my day. okay. i kind of forgot i did today. it seemed so long.
had tuition. went to get my graduation tics(syukur alhamdulillah got. if not tmr i cant go to work) haha and den got back home. help with cleaning the room. slpt for awhile. helped abit in the kitchen. and den went jogging. folded my clothes. iron my clothes for tmr and voila. here i am. seems long rite? of cos there are lil things inbetween dat i did dat i dun think needed to be mention. heh
i feel fulfilled today. don't know y.
haha and my uncs n my aunts keep teasing me. with something that i obviously do not have. haha kept saying im always out with my bf, meet my bf lah, talk to on the fone wif my bf(where it had been only the girlies and my sis). and i kept saying dat i do not haf one and yet they persistently teass me non-stop. are they bugging me to get a bf? hmmm*thinking* haha watever it is. it's all good. all these are just jokes i guess. makes life more interseting and happening. heh. bluek.
life been good. i can only thank GOD. o well. smiles always k. muacks.
Saturday, July 23, 2005
i wanna say thanks to blah blah blah...
went for the rugger's bbq. it was a pleasure. thanks darlings, for making the effort. ya...tho not all of u will read this entry of mine, there r a couple things that i think you all deserve to know. wat someone said is, dun miss the oppurtunity to tell the ones have hw much you care n love them...
to my dearest fellow team mates and juniors..
siti sabariah abdul rashid :
how good it was to c you again after so long BUN(ive decided to call u bun. go figure). awak lah yg teramat dirindui. it felt really good being there with you. being there on the field with u was always memorable. nvr failed to cheer up everybody's mood. and u've always been my backbone. i love you lots for that. and dun worry, im always here for you. no matter wat we went thru, ur still there n i will always b here till i die *smiles*. thank you for being such a dear. and of cos having you comes in two and there is adam chan arif. you both are just wonderful. *winks*
daphne lee wei ling:
haha, yesh darling. haha really remembered the first time you joined. ur a grt chilling partner and i love you lots for giving me a wiser advice given ur "experience" in life. ur one of my dears that i dun wanna lose and you know that. watever happens, u can count on me. and im glad to have you as my partner in the team. those memories i'll keep.
farahanah bte mohd noh:
the captain for my batch. always the crazy one. and of cos the fearful one when having her time of the mth. nevertheless, i admire ur tekun-ness in being the captain. whatever u haf done for the team was very much appreciated. haha memories i had with you on the field, be it during ivp, games and trg, up or down, it was something i will cherish. *smiles*
Nurherliza binte karim:
haha im not sure u will read this. but, yeah i love you lots babe. went thru lots of stuffs together when we were in first yr all the way till now. tho u stopped for a yr, u came back and i love u more for that cos i missed u terribly on the field. uve always been my journey hm partner and of cos consulting in each other with problems. cherished those moments and more to come. thks for introducing me to 4pm.
and my juniors...
Candy soh shia leng:
u noe the times i had with u was memorable. i missed that u. u were a grt junior and and a grt fren that came along when i was at the bottom of the pit. and i love you lots for just being there for me. i read my past entries and realised ur one of a kind. just stay happy always ya. i dunno but i believe deep dwn, i noe u well and hw u feel. am sorry for anything wrg i did and i hope things will be fine. u told me before, pretence wont do anything good.. it made me think til now. *smiles* take care of urself ya..
vicki er qian pei:
thnks for the lil note. i missed gg down for trgs. playing wif u n the rest. no worries ya. i was not hurt or offended in anyway. instead, i should thank you for watever happened. it encouraged me in alot of ways in life and i adore you for that. glad it happened. haha miss ur stupid whines. really i do. and of cos u were a fantastic junior. heh. haha love ya. shall try 2 come dwn for trgs. *smiles* *hugs* and oh. good luck ya ey captain!
jean, rina & chiew hong- aish,zak n siti:
you three are of a kind. haha i just wanna thank u guys for the beautiful collage and yeah the gifts. it was great having u guys under the sp wings. haha love u all lots. u guys noe u have a lot of potential in urself. so be the best ya!. muackssssssssss
nazhan the coach:
i cant deny the fact that u were and are the best coach ever. the girls are lucky to have you. and of cos i dun wish to see u leaving the team. insya allah i hope the girls will realise the value of a good coach and u brought the best out of us and me. thanks nazhan. P.S: i ask alot of questions because i noe only u haf the best ans and *ahem* i trust in u very much. hahah. thanks again naz.
watever i have said was from what i feel. to those names i didn mention was okay i don't think u'll read my blog. but if u do, leave a tag ya. haha n u'll receive a personal msg. watever it is. i enjoyed my 3 three yrs in poly the most was because of the touch rugby team. without you guys, i'll probably be dead. heh. thanks for everything. the wonderful food. and the hospitality and the collage. love u guys.
first of all. thanks siti mariam for the tic. really. i enjoyed the concert very much. being my first concert. thanks darling. love ya!
work at the new place been good. got transferred to another company for 2 mths. its the usual stuff. autocad n architectural drwgs. i just have to bear it with few more mths and c wat i can do in the future. i really hope i have the strength to continue working. insya allah
graduation is next wk. so fast. hmmm gonna bring a camera! haha so yeah fotos up eh. insya allah
been really busy and tired. haha so today seems blissful to me. and oh ya. my sis birthday!
happy birthday mastura binte jumali!!
i don't have much to update u noe. there is nothing that i nd to express. haha syukur alhamdulillah. there is only ONE that's in my heart now.
oh. yah. i went Darul Arqs (haha stylo eh) with nora and zur and saw wyna n mimi. haha we signed up for this course to further sharpen our knowledge. it was good. furthermore it was in english. i like. i like wat i saw.
work at the new place been good. got transferred to another company for 2 mths. its the usual stuff. autocad n architectural drwgs. i just have to bear it with few more mths and c wat i can do in the future. i really hope i have the strength to continue working. insya allah
graduation is next wk. so fast. hmmm gonna bring a camera! haha so yeah fotos up eh. insya allah
been really busy and tired. haha so today seems blissful to me. and oh ya. my sis birthday!
happy birthday mastura binte jumali!!
i don't have much to update u noe. there is nothing that i nd to express. haha syukur alhamdulillah. there is only ONE that's in my heart now.
oh. yah. i went Darul Arqs (haha stylo eh) with nora and zur and saw wyna n mimi. haha we signed up for this course to further sharpen our knowledge. it was good. furthermore it was in english. i like. i like wat i saw.
Wednesday, July 20, 2005
all i wanna say is that, i saw the beautiful side of life today. :D
things that i've left behind in search of my own life. too caught up in my new found beginning. no longer stuck in the mud. i want to explore. meet new ppl. but at the same time, i dun wanna lose my dear ones. im struggling here.
went out with dear daph today. it was always nice seeing her. and updating our lifes. and working life's not something worth doing without passion. n i dun want to do something that's only for my own good.
had a conversation with her. bout life. bout ppl. which all comes down to one, i hate the world. its full of lies and pain. she told me stories bout the kids that work at the banquet. how they live their life. true, i've no right to judge them in any way...hmmm eh im not judging. just observing, feeling the pain for them. not looking down on them, rather feel sad. they know what's right and what's wrong but still temptations win them over. the need to feel high and enjoy so that they can forget their pain in life. how sad. im not trying to be one or act holy. this is me. i think alot. i feel alot. and whenever i see them, my heart aches. true enuff wat daph said, we cant help everybody. but what if each n everyone of us instil goodness in ourself. that watever we say or do, we do it with lots of kindness, im sure that will touch any living soul. or maybe im too naive. i dun understand wat good do u get by being mean. by hurting other people's feeling. hmmm arh im disgressing here. back to the kids. i felt really overwhelmed listening to daph. i had to stop myself frm tearing. it's sad.i hope i can do something for the society. especially the teenagers. nowadays. late is better then never. if there are ppl hu shows that they care for them, again i believe they will b touched. goodness will prevail. cheh. i sound like some monk in some kungfu fighting show. heh. the fight between yin and yang. good and evil. light and darkness. o well
i firmly hold on to the belief of having faith.
have faith in yourself, whatever you do. and then have faith in others and GOD's creation.
when someone have faith in you, ull be nuts not to have faith in urself.
telling someone that you have faith in him or she means alot. it gives him or she the strength to continue and overcome whatever obstacles they are going thru.
faith nvr fail. *smiles*
ive learnt alot of things. thru 4pm. the people i hung out with. booba. conversations i had. n everything. it builds me up. ppl may say alot of things and this n that. but i'll only take what i think is right. ambil yg jernih, buang yg keruh.
i cant say im proud of who i am now. i dun wish to brag. i dun wish to be in the limelight. i don't wish to be anyone special. i can only say that, im thankful for everything.
o well. i duno wat i was trying to say. im tired.
everything happens for a reason.
im sorry if this entry offended you. sorry.
im quite intrigued by this guy. been reading his blog. his thinking, his personality. it captures me in a weird way. he loves arguing, for the fun of it. i like that too. o well. lets not think too much. i wld love to befriend him. friendship is all i ask for.
i hope matin is doing fine.
and booba, i din manage to catch IT. heh. next wk maybe.
new workplace tmr. hope there wont be any naggy boss ya.
p.s: my boss is nice. he's just very naggy and chatty. which i do not know how to respond to. all i did was just nod my head and smile. pretendish rite? i don;t like.
Tuesday, July 19, 2005
i din manage to catch incredible tales
i have alot of things to say. just don't know where to startthings that i've left behind in search of my own life. too caught up in my new found beginning. no longer stuck in the mud. i want to explore. meet new ppl. but at the same time, i dun wanna lose my dear ones. im struggling here.
went out with dear daph today. it was always nice seeing her. and updating our lifes. and working life's not something worth doing without passion. n i dun want to do something that's only for my own good.
had a conversation with her. bout life. bout ppl. which all comes down to one, i hate the world. its full of lies and pain. she told me stories bout the kids that work at the banquet. how they live their life. true, i've no right to judge them in any way...hmmm eh im not judging. just observing, feeling the pain for them. not looking down on them, rather feel sad. they know what's right and what's wrong but still temptations win them over. the need to feel high and enjoy so that they can forget their pain in life. how sad. im not trying to be one or act holy. this is me. i think alot. i feel alot. and whenever i see them, my heart aches. true enuff wat daph said, we cant help everybody. but what if each n everyone of us instil goodness in ourself. that watever we say or do, we do it with lots of kindness, im sure that will touch any living soul. or maybe im too naive. i dun understand wat good do u get by being mean. by hurting other people's feeling. hmmm arh im disgressing here. back to the kids. i felt really overwhelmed listening to daph. i had to stop myself frm tearing. it's sad.i hope i can do something for the society. especially the teenagers. nowadays. late is better then never. if there are ppl hu shows that they care for them, again i believe they will b touched. goodness will prevail. cheh. i sound like some monk in some kungfu fighting show. heh. the fight between yin and yang. good and evil. light and darkness. o well
i firmly hold on to the belief of having faith.
have faith in yourself, whatever you do. and then have faith in others and GOD's creation.
when someone have faith in you, ull be nuts not to have faith in urself.
telling someone that you have faith in him or she means alot. it gives him or she the strength to continue and overcome whatever obstacles they are going thru.
faith nvr fail. *smiles*
ive learnt alot of things. thru 4pm. the people i hung out with. booba. conversations i had. n everything. it builds me up. ppl may say alot of things and this n that. but i'll only take what i think is right. ambil yg jernih, buang yg keruh.
i cant say im proud of who i am now. i dun wish to brag. i dun wish to be in the limelight. i don't wish to be anyone special. i can only say that, im thankful for everything.
o well. i duno wat i was trying to say. im tired.
everything happens for a reason.
im sorry if this entry offended you. sorry.
im quite intrigued by this guy. been reading his blog. his thinking, his personality. it captures me in a weird way. he loves arguing, for the fun of it. i like that too. o well. lets not think too much. i wld love to befriend him. friendship is all i ask for.
i hope matin is doing fine.
and booba, i din manage to catch IT. heh. next wk maybe.
new workplace tmr. hope there wont be any naggy boss ya.
p.s: my boss is nice. he's just very naggy and chatty. which i do not know how to respond to. all i did was just nod my head and smile. pretendish rite? i don;t like.
Thursday, July 14, 2005
anyway. this song is nice. reflects watever im feeling.
im not sad or angry or unhappy. no feelings. indifferent. but this song means alot eh. thanks booba. muacks. oh n thanks for the sensible conversations. heh. haha ur a grt shopping kaki too k. i'll wait. u noe for wat rite.
been working with fiza BOOBA!!! hahaha
yesh. its good having her around. really. less boring and sleepy. it gets very sleepy. staring at the screen, really!!! im so afraid of my head may just roll off. bleh
went out with her on wed. haha rushing all the way... but she managed to get her stuffs. so it was good. i like her necklace. haha
to think of it, a digicam will be nice eh? hmmmmm. not a necessity
anyway peeps, i wont be able to msg or call cos i REFUSE to pay my hp bill. haha yesh.maybe till the end of june or if i dun feel rebellious anymore. so anything just call or msg me ya
and gonna get transferred to another company next week. haha got OT pay so i dun mind working late. so yesh. last week of freedom. cos i wanna end extra money eh.
graduation day coming soon eh!! haha ermmm im in a dilemma. haha ermm. wil think carefully about it.
and tmr is the PLAY. yay. hmmmm cant wait. muahaha. i love plays now. thanks to MATIN shah. bah i miss him. bleh.
and nothing much to update u see. happy for daph. happy for fiza happy for everyone.
haha. sometime i wonder. wat gonna happen to me in the future. i wonder too much.
i can only leave it to fate and HIM.
arh!! haha cant wait........
im not sad or angry or unhappy. no feelings. indifferent. but this song means alot eh. thanks booba. muacks. oh n thanks for the sensible conversations. heh. haha ur a grt shopping kaki too k. i'll wait. u noe for wat rite.
What You're Made Of
Just like I predicted,
we're at the point of no return
We can go backwards, and no corners have been turned
I can't control it, if I sink or if I swim
'Cause I chose the waters that I'm in
And it makes no difference who is right or wrong
I deserve much more than this'
Cause there's only one thing I want
If it's not what you're made of
You're not what I'm looking for
You were willing but unable to give me anymore
There's no way,You're changing,
Cause some things will just never be mine
You're not in love this time...but it's alright.
You're not what I'm looking for
You were willing but unable to give me anymore
There's no way,You're changing,
Cause some things will just never be mine
You're not in love this time...but it's alright.
I hear you talking, but your words don't mean a thing
I doubt you ever put your heart in anything
It's not much to ask for, to get back what I put in
But I chose the waters that I'm in
And it makes no difference who is right or wrong
I deserve much more than this'
Cause there's only one thing I want
If it's not what you're made of
You're not what I'm looking for
You were willing but unable to give me anymore
There's no way,You're changing,
Cause some things will just never be mine
You're not in love this time...but it's alright.
What's your definition of the one?
What you really want him to become?
No matter what I sacrifice it's still never enough.
Just like I predicted
I will sink before I swim'
Cause these are the waters that I'm in
If it's not what you're made of
You're not what I'm looking for
You were willing, but unable to give me anymore
There's no way,You're changing,'
Cause some things will just never be mine
You're not in love this time.
You're not in love this time.
You're not in love this time
booo
okay. im back here. just for a momentbeen working with fiza BOOBA!!! hahaha
yesh. its good having her around. really. less boring and sleepy. it gets very sleepy. staring at the screen, really!!! im so afraid of my head may just roll off. bleh
went out with her on wed. haha rushing all the way... but she managed to get her stuffs. so it was good. i like her necklace. haha
to think of it, a digicam will be nice eh? hmmmmm. not a necessity
anyway peeps, i wont be able to msg or call cos i REFUSE to pay my hp bill. haha yesh.maybe till the end of june or if i dun feel rebellious anymore. so anything just call or msg me ya
and gonna get transferred to another company next week. haha got OT pay so i dun mind working late. so yesh. last week of freedom. cos i wanna end extra money eh.
graduation day coming soon eh!! haha ermmm im in a dilemma. haha ermm. wil think carefully about it.
and tmr is the PLAY. yay. hmmmm cant wait. muahaha. i love plays now. thanks to MATIN shah. bah i miss him. bleh.
and nothing much to update u see. happy for daph. happy for fiza happy for everyone.
haha. sometime i wonder. wat gonna happen to me in the future. i wonder too much.
i can only leave it to fate and HIM.
arh!! haha cant wait........
Sunday, July 03, 2005
hmmm. we as a human being, we shld learn to be patient and not get work up so easily. we should learn to control our temper and not let it control us. and be rude to someone that's above you. and we should realise wat's our origin n our culture. and learn to control our mouth, our lips and tongue. control wat we gonna say cos everything single thing will b noted down. and the biggest sin comes from our mouth, so pls i beg you. i do not want u to bear unnecessary sins where u can control. we should learn not to get swayed by the world. dat after all, we gonna die one day, if not sooner, maybe later. but watever it is. we will be leaving everything that's given to us now. no point holding tight to it cos we cant bring it with us. so please. think twice before you speak or do anything. i sincerely, do not want u to suffer ltr on. it makes me cry thinking bt it. *smiles*.