im sick of putting up a strong face. really, cos deep down, im nt dat. do u noe hw does it feels lyk losing someone dat gaf birth to u? losing someone dat lives practically d entire life wif u?

im nt strong bcos its juz me. i haf to b strong for my sis, for my bro, for my entire fam n for my mum. its bcos i need to b. the world wont wait for me.

i miss my mum's jumps, tickles, poking, frequent qns, waiting up late for me, calling me pretty juz bcos i wear something new, her love for me n her complains. i belif she doted on me d most cos she seldom scolded me. she listened to me, she'll tok to me when she's bored. i noe it's only been one day. but i cant stop tinking things wld nvr b d same in d future.

p.s. i wld appreciate it if anyone wld juz nt ask me whether im okay, cos d truth is im not. anyone shld frigging noe im nt okay after losing my mum. im sorry but i've gt to say this. nt dat i dun appreciate the concern, im juz worried i may break down any moment. i've always had a hard time saying im okay cos im not.

anyway my dearest frens, thanks for all d effort made to make me feel better. n my classmates too, thanks alot. i really do appreciate it, it will make a difference to me n my fam.
thanks for d effort to cheer me up. love you all.
thanks for coming over to my hse, i will tide this over.
thanks dear for being understanding. love you too.