life is stressful. im sorry for being such a sorrowful bitch but dat's wat i've been feeling. my mum's nt getting well, nt at all. her feet is still swollen, she's nt feeling well, her appetite deteriorate n she's been getting fainting spell. argh i feel bad complaining it here n u peeps reading it but i cant keep it to myself, cant pour it out to my fam members. wth, wat is blog for?

argh im sad, fearful, terrified, confused, pathetic n useless. my unc mentioned an hr ago dat if my mum's condition is nt getting well, we juz got to b prepared for d worst. wat else can dat mean? the last time i lost someone precious to me, it was a huge blow. i kind of "ran" away from home for abt 6 mths. i stayed at my aunt hse. dat was my late grandma n i truly loved her alot. n despite the way my mum is, i admit she's very precious to me. im not bothered or angry dat she's nt lyk other mums, juz appreciate her the way she is n thankful she's my mum.

she cant cook, cant do normal stuffs n i dun even get extra allowance from her but yeah she gaf birth to me. so those hu got mums dat r perfectly normal, i advise to stop bitching bt her n b thankful. bah nw u guys think im a bitterful, angry girl.

i dunno hw to pour myself out, this feelings inside r juz der. so guys if i dun look too good or i appeared too arrogant, dun bother. i juz dun understand y crappy stuffs happen to my fam. seems lyk in my whole 19 yrs, i doubt i've any normal yrs. im nt accepting any pity from anyone. guess i lyk 2 b strong. inside n out. here i am pouring all my heart out. *slap myself* bah i gt to b positive.

n yah having a sis lyk mine dun help.