heh juz received a call from someone. he asked me to take care of myself. was touched. argh i hate to say this. i still really do miss my mum. i've been thinking bt her. no doubt bt dat. thought bt her every nite without fail...

sometimes, i woke up, nt believing wat happen 2 weeks ago was real. i hate to type this down in my blog. i miss her alot. miss her laughter, her smile, her winks. i need her badly.. to keep me strong...she was definitely e sunshine in my life, dat kept me going. im nt mood 4 anything.

shit stuffs been happening arnd me. i feel lyk im an outsider, im stayin in someone else hse, always feeling unwanted. d reason y i stayed on was bcos of my late mum. d reason i stayed strong n kept quiet was also bcos of her. but i think i totally blew it off today.i knew it was my mistake but she juz gt to say it out.made me feel unwanted. made a mess of my room juz to vent her anger. mayb she said it out of anger. but i tink i noe her better. nvr really like her ever since i met her. juz being nice to her 4 my uncs sake. heh. mayb i shld juz keep quiet. let watever will be, will be.

i was juz thinking, dat mayb now, my mum is no longer arnd, i tink i wanna move out of this hse once i graduate frm poly. any1 wanna bunk it wif me? heh. its better dat way i guess. i wanna live independently. watever it is. i leave it to fate. my life will get better i guess.

haha yesterday was a grt day n today is a shitty day. wat can i say. life's unpredictable. one moment someone can b an angel, next moment dat person can b a devil. heh. two faced crap. earlier on i had so much things to mention here but i guess i dun tink its rite. juz partial of it to make myself better.