juz woke up. been waking up early. had a stupid drm again lol. this time is abt skool. saw e sinister smile lect. lol was suppose to do project n i was toking to unknown ppl. den saw dat lect. the unknown ppl were guessing wat socks she's wearing. lol n it looked pretty weird to. she was wearing heels on another heels wif socks to hide it . din really noe hw she balanced it. when i asked her wat she's wearing, she said dun ask. lol wth. stupid eh. must b shereen lah. nvrtheless i had a gd slp.

hmmm, was reading candy's blog. somehw it's kind of true dat last bit. a strong person at heart is actually a real weakling. everything dat was put up was juz a mask. to cover all the insecureness n uncertainties. i dun tink im even strong at heart, mayb not in the past. every pain dat i felt, i cried it out. nt now i guess, nt anymore.
issit me or is der something really wrg wif d person? am i juz running away cos im getting tired of it or issit really beyond hope? i've been wondering, y am i attracted to chinese guys n nt malays considering dat d r/s probably wont work out. something bt malay guys juz put me off. mayb bcos i've been living in a hse wif too many man arnd. i gt 9 uncs u noe. i probably noe hw guys r lyk n dun 1 2 end up wif a similar characteristic. nt dat i loathe dem but juz dat malays has a diff attitude towards life. haha im nt being racist here but juz penning my tots. look at my classmates, the malay guys. *rolls eyes* but den again der r those exceptional ones. mayb its juz my bad experience, once bitten twice shy. heh watever it is i cant c myself wif a malay guy. n im nt saying dat chinese guys r superb or watever, juz dat dey grab my attention easily. lol unless i gt a commitment phobia, cos watever i choose to do, its always something dat is beyond my grasp, cos den i dun haf to bother completing it. hmm seems ironic ar, considering dat im in my 2nd yr. mayb dat's when all the troubles begin...

n its 9 am nw, i shall wait till 10 am n watch cartoons. in the meanwhile shall do my work. lol