dying ppl. brain prob.schizophrenia.hw docs keep themself sane?

hmmm back home.
heh work was okay, the normal stuffs. just dat sometimes when i c certain patients dat resembles my mum, it made me teared. n me seeing certain patients suffering, my heart goes out to dem. der was this patient, the family members was actually getting demself prepared for her death. her coma. wat gonna happen. and she was just der, cldnt talk, helpless, sick. the doc said, sometimes we've got to learn to let go. made me think. we cant always haf things going our way. do u noe how painful i felt, finding out dat i had to let her go cos it wasnt easy on her? dat i was the first to noe? dat she'll no longer be arnd? n dat i love her very much. god, all those things. i hate hospitals nw.
watever conversation the doc had wif his patient's fam member was too unbearable. but i coped well. work is work after all rite?

somehow dat had an after effect on me. i was hyperactive when it was down to trg. probably it's just the girls. seeing dem makes me happy. crazy bunch of ppl. haha journey home wif dat 2 girls was good. realy. after so long. heh. i tend to cherish such things more u noe.

im nt really sure wat has changed. mayb im too used to it? hmmm enlighten me pls. tell me.
in frenship, we dun keep things to ourself. honesty is the best policy. heh. right siti sabariah abdul rashid?