m waiting for my aunt to come down, to fetch me.
hmm realised dat i look very dark. real black. lol its good in a way cos i wont look so girlish. haha
fair = girly. bangla wont get attracted to me. heh. im still young, i shall enjoy while i can before settling down.

everytime i woke up, i've always wonder wat did i say the night before. cos seriously my brain is crazy. i think logically n rationally in the day but when it comes to night time, i say stuffs dat i wldn say in the day. im just more open at night. n bcos of dat i dun trust myself at night, even when im slping. lol but so far, it's been good. haha i need that night time of me to say things dat i wanna say n it's also essential for me to do my work at nite cos dat's when all the good ideas come. haha right *rolls eyes* but seriously. im just more me when it's at nite.

n i haven really think wat gonna happen when skool reopens. all those unfinished business. im nt sure wat gonna happen or hw to react or wat to do. i noe i wont b sitting next to u. sorry. nt really sure hw to face my classmates given the fact dat i've broken up wif someone whom i was wif for 2 yrs. damn, really im nt sure on wat to do. i tink i'll b playing dat tug of war game again in my mind. its clearly shown dat i shldn even bother. but, *sigh* mayb i shldn. will c when skool reopens. i hope things will b okay. 5 more days. so fast n im frigging hell busy. i must do my work asap. argh damn.