i know. plenty of entries today.

im not myself ar.

its amazing how different one is on and off the blog. yeah. whatever they say or type or whatever ar.

i don't understand alot of things. and im trying to get a grip of myself.
am i being to hard on myself. am i forcing myself to smile too much. am i too nice. am i too easy going.

saw the friendster pics. it brought back angst in me.
why are emotions complicated?

i have alot of sides to me. the ones that i've not shown are the ones that i will never want to show. but they say if you bottle it up for too long, you'll crumble real bad one day.
is that true? hmm i can't seem to make myself cry. about anything. im too cold? i don't know.
i just don't want to get myself hurt. yeah. im not ready.