i was just thinking. how much i've tried, denying myself that im happy being single.

hmmm. maybe i am happy afterall. being single all that.

but i do envy my darl ones. like fiza, aish or anyone with a special someone. i don't feel inadequate when they do talk about their other half. its just that, i miss those times. im pissed at myself cos i find it hard to admit it. don't ask what is that "it" cos im find it hard to even type it out. i like to think that i can live by myself. im enjoying myself as an individual that its nt bothering me but i feel weird. why? im not making efforts. hmmmrp. im feeling eeky. don't know why. urgh. like i said before, its contradicting. i like it the way it is now. but i don't know what i want. i've a problem. very big one. i don't think i wanna share. haha i want to leave it as it is but i cant.
cos its bugging me. bugger! heh don't think. haha

oh and i like to get my facts right. thus explains why i like to request ppl to repeat whatever they say. its not that im pekak k. its to reconfirm what ive heard. im feeling slpy. heh.