i feel bad for leaving halfway. in fact i feel shitty bout it. but i had to do what i had to do.
it's stupid. no point comforting myself with stupid reasons, no point getting angry at them bcos i know they are right.

erm, thanks helmet boy, for the ride home. appreciate it alot. super kind of u.

2 more mths im out of school. mayb 2 more mths to my own freedom. dat's when i'll grad. fast fast fast.

i feel like i've plunged into a blackhole. i just feel like screaming my head's off. i don't know.
i fee likel im living in a lie. everything is a lie. feelings hidden. ppl do to please. and me! im procrastinator. a big one. i just want to drop everything and go run away to some island. and then stay by myself.

i want to stay by myself. and probably sit and see the world goes by. and just sit quietly, minding my own business and observe everything. i just need that time to myself. of not doing anything. doing nothing at all. just chill and relax. cos everyday i've been doing something. to keep up with everyone.

and yeah. the Alfie show. nvr appreciate what he got till it's lost. sad. and i'll probably dedicate some time of my own to just slacking and enjoy life before i start moving on. no worries bout submission. maybe just stop by the beach and admire the blue sky or probably when the night time comes, den i'll stay awake counting the stars. been wanting to do that. cos once we start moving on, working and all that, i doubt we ever stop.