long entry

went out to catch a french movie yest with my fren. the movie was so-so movie but with lots of reality bites in it.

for example, the what-if's situations. there were moments where we pondered and pondered, what-if we made that move but we didn cos we were too scared. and of cos you know the story, we spent the rest of time thinking what if. like in the show, just when the girl was about to atone what she had done, and do her what-if situation, fate just had to get back at her. an eye for an eye. she din get what she wanted to do 12 yrs ago cos it was abit too late. little did she know the guy had been waiting for her ever since she left.

and sometimes, we've got to make choices. decisions. for ourselves and the person we love . just because of tiny setbacks, you are ready to pack up and fly off. heh this is like literally out of the storyline. haha but yeah. choices. decision makings. who likes them?

after that, went to meet my fren's fren. haha totally. yeah so just walked all the way from city hall to clarke quay. yep yep crapped all the way. chill~

TODAY

haha had trg. woke up late. but den again they haven started trg so im okay rite. hah i've realised that i can be really harsh or mean in the field. im sorry if i am but i think i cant be all nicey all the time. sometimes, when we say it once or twice or thrice and it has no effect, i think its time to be stern. anyhoo if i did hurt anyone's feeling im sorry ay. i have alot more to say but shall stop it here.

went out with liz n sab. yep ate at banquet! haha i ate teriyaki set with wasabi! muahaha. but no effect cos eating with rice and gravy all that. after that we had blizzard again!!! yah. m feeling fat. r-e-a-l-l-y f-a-t.

i hate it when i've decided to do something and then i go all lazy. and to make it worst, i asked my sis along. and so my ear gonna ache today till i slp.

i read this blog. just a blog that i happened to chance upon. abt how sad she felt, upon losing her bf. it hurts. to be in that situation. put myself in her shoe. but then again u wont know the story until you know the other side of the story. so yeah. the thing is, with us, we nvr appreciate what we've got till we lost it. cherish what and who you have. no matter how many times this is said, we nvr really listen. cos we'r too caught up in the world of materialism, rat race and selfishness that we tend to forget those who cares for us.

and really. im sick of socialising with ppl. what's with PR? hmm. yep, i wont deny it's important in our daily routine but it's just full of crap shit. C-R-A-P. yesh. just full of hypocracy to get what you want. just full of sucking-up. what happens to honesty? i know these are just senseless comments. cos again without PR, there cld b a war happening now. it's just that, im sick of being a people pleaser (copy righted from sab). whatever i've said or done, it was from the bottom of my heart. i msged you that i miss you cos i really do. not to be in your good book or what. if i said something that hurt your feelings, its because i care. i can be very blunt but i do think before i speak. i give what i think you deserve. if you'r not happy, talk it out with me. im more than happy to straighten it out. tho things may not be the same again. bottom line is, life is just full of hypocracy and lies. i've always wondered, whether, whatever is or was said is the truth? maybe it's not an intentional lie or maybe it is. cos me, just like any other living human being, do lie. i've seen it. ppl backstabbing each other. to get what they want. i observes. but quietly. i spend my time thinking, trying to place the jigsaw pieces together. it's how i reflect on myself.
o well. time to rest. maybe joggin ltr. im not satisfied with the trg today.