okay. maybe i held strong. well until now maybe.

i feel like something was ripped off from me. i feel empty.
sad. disappointed. like i said before. the feeling is similar to the ones that i feel after breaking up with someone. all i wanna do is binge. i feel delusional. i dun even want to think about it. mayb one day i'll face the facts but not now. i think we deserves better.

but then again. what for right. when its all over. yesh. o-v-e-r. everything dat i've put in for the 3 yrs. every trg sessions that i tried to make for was for nothing. why am i fussing over this when its all over? cos im hurt. hurt by the game. maybe one day, i'll take nazhan's challenge. but for now. i feel like staying away from the game. its too saddening. sorry. for the pensive thoughts

its time i concentrate on my work. i dun want to quit ar. 2 n half yrs of work, hundreds spent and slpless nights. just what is 3 more weeks rite? yeah. a blessing in disguise maybe.

sometimes. i hate being too positive. i need to let it out. i hate staying here. i hate having to share the house. i hate the way im treated. feel unwanted. maybe it's just me. i want to stay at my own house. 2-3 more months. soon.

everything will be fine. soon...

oh did i mention dat, i'll tend to feel more for the person that i drm of. but lately i've been too tired. tired of everything. o well. life's not over.

and yah ross. love you so much. cant believe its here when im just abt to noe u more. take care dear when ur over there. muacks.