hey, another chapter bout me eh. dun bother reading.

you know what, i don't know what my sis was thinking bout when she switched off the light and she's not even in the room.heh

went to ikea on sat with my family. shopping i guess. my uncle bought for me this raspberry scented tea light candles. sweet. and then went to east coast lagoon to have dinner. shiok. really. haha good food again. 3 days consecutively. cos i had satay and again good food today. tell me again why wont i get fat? cos im definitely looking at fatsuh in the mirror. my loved ones just keeps on feeding me.

i had alot of issues that i thought about on my way from punggol to queenstown. damn it was really a long journey. firstly there is this "illnes" that my dad has. neurofibromatosis. birth disorder. and its hereditary. and sadly there isnt any treatment for it. its a miracle that im able to enter poly or even study. its just sad and worrying. makes my future rather bleak.

and so we were at the ikea. walking arnd, looking at stuffs. and then i saw this girl. the moment she saw my dad, she went running to her mum. avoiding my dad at all cost as tho he's has a deadly disease. i was so hurt. i felt like slapping the girl's face. that's my dad that she was reacting to. and he's a human with feelings with complete body features. so he definitely didn deserve that. and the most irritating part was that, the mother was protecting the kid like a mother hen. i mean, wth? my dad is not a monster lah. and the fact that its hereditary, means i have 50% chances of getting it. the bump in my face is rather worrying and so what if it happens to me in the future? what? are you guys going to abandon me? or will be jobless? be the butt of joke? apparently i tink my bro haf NF1 sypmtoms. the pigments and difficulties in studying. and it can affect nerve systems which includes the brain. i think i haf enough of cubaan that's being put on us. but then again, mayb there will be a blessing in diguise. i suspect that my dad's frequent complains of back pain and tummy pain has got to do with neurofibromatosis. im worried. i guess, being with me comes with a heavy responsibilities. i rather be an andatu. o well. bless those who were born perfect. i think this plays a part in the anger that's building within me. like why my dad and my late mum? when they are already less perfect? who i am to question God's will. but to accept whatever fate we were given and to learn from it. i think its time i really shld go for a check up and im going tmr. pray hard for me ya.

arh. this thing been bugging me for days.

on a happier note. i've grinned too much today till my jaws ache. thanks.
i don't want to think abt unnecessary stuffs. im strong wat. just that at times, i nd to let it out. heh.