thoughts thoughts.

hmmm. im trying to do my work. practically alone in the class that i just feel like going home any momemnt. or mayb slack at fiza's hse. just a tot. yah ah. can still slack ar. arh but. no one arnd!!! shld haf just stayed at home. hmmrp. i cld haf slp more. im so lethargic. tues-trg, wed-netball n today trg again!! arh duno lah. over exhausting myself.

was looking at this First Degree issue, saw the scholarships that they provided. Seems to cater more for those with A-level certs. and i think im fickle minded. after reading what they said,im confuse with what i want. and after some talk i had with my fren it seems worthless to pursue an interior architecture degree. i mean, if i am to take the course, i will be just paying for the degree. i have interest in designing. yes only that. i want to do something that have no constraints. i wanna be free. but sadly. singapore system sucks.time is money. rite amb?

anyway was doing my work and i happened to be reading rina's blog. then the cute wizard came out. haha i tot it was from the program that im using and it was demanding $1000. like wth? haha question mark, den i realised orh must be rina's blog. lol. so cute. heh

had netball tournie yest. sadly we lost. but it was a grt game. i had nvr played netball before in my entire life. i learnt there and then. it was fun. it i ever thought of switching interest, netball will be next on the list. *rolls eyes* haha rite. but ya. it was fun. and den i rushed to PS. bloody hell. the bloody phucking bus was damn long ar. frigging hell. made me pissed. and i missed daph's cutting her cake. pffft!!! and i read daph's blog and i almost teared reading her blog. haha emo emo. daph, ur super special to me okay. im so sorry cldnt be there on time.

sitting here alone, listening to my lecturer made me realise how much things ive got to do and its scaring the hell out of me. arh. i've got a date with my lecturer tmr afternoon. maybe i shld think twice bout that recce. hmmm

you know i've realised that. that there were times where i may be just sitting beside you, laughing my heads off and joking with you but deep down i realised that i don't even know the real you. hmm i feel rather distant. its like when i read the blogs entries, i just feel like im an just an acquaintance. i feel lost reading them. i so much want to know you better. heh. this you can anyone. im not referring to a certain person or what. i just feel that there are alot of masks. or maybe its just me ar? din make an effort to know better.or mayb ppl are reserving their rights. privacy? but den y blog? hmmm. just a thought. am i right or wrong? i sound so mdm zainon. heh