i feel like keeping myself low profile. nothing extra ordinary happened or something worth mentioning.

suddenly everything else and anything else doesn seem to matter.
i don't know what it means but somehow, i don't know. had my ups and downs during this time of week. been thinking alot. about friends. crudeness. family. my late mom. my future. my current state of mind is in a mess. i am there but not there. heh

been giving myself the space. i need to plan out what to do. i cant just go with the flow. its making me feel uncomfortable. tho i may not follow THE plan, i still need something to guide me thru.

im not thinking of anyone. hmmm. nope. nt at all. well maybe my late mum. quaker oats. i used to cook that for her everyday. to make her eat. cos she din like to eat anything else. how i tried adding varieties to it to make it taste nicer. and ya. i was rather emotional when i was back at my joo chiat's hse. the time i spent there with just my family. my dad, my late mum, my sis n my bro. just us. how nice it was. o well. memories. i miss her. 6 mths eh. e first year in my life she's nt gonna wish me happy birthday. e first ever that she's not around to watch me grow a yr older.

and ya. i went for the briefing today. im gonna be just sitting up there and record the game. how wonderful. i think it's to be cool.

sometimes i just feel like screaming my heads off. just throw a huge tantrum. sigh. why?

i feel like strangling someone. wont mention names tho. just ya, i think you deserve a tight slap. urgh. bloody irritating. still the same as ever. forever thinking highly of ownself and thinking he/she can get away with everything. no matter how good a squirrel is at jumping, there will be one day it will fall onto the ground. just a thought. my late grandma fav phrase. in malay of course *smiles*