clownish yeah.yep yep. dats me.

HEY!

im a happier person now.

reallyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy

see??

oh just for the record. if someone can do this, so can i.
i will NEVER EVER forget the time on bus no. 12, on 11th of MAY, on wednesday at arnd 6+?? winks.n of cos the song, along joochiat rd? if this seems familiar den yesh. haha u noe it ar.. the word is never. my benchmark.

nothing can change that. my happiness is double of yours.

and i love you daphneeee.......

n siti sabariah abdul rashid...

and norhafizah binte azmi

n nur aishah binte ali

& liza.....

n nur rasyidi too...

n yesh adam chan arif too

oh i forgot david teo. lol

for being great frens. i love you guys very much. i cant hold back my feelings. dats for sure.

and oh yesh. the "O big one", thanks for everything. the advices. and im happy for u. every single thing dats happening. *SMILES*

today was a great day. back to work tmr.

someone mentioned this before. how a clown is like. happy on the inside, but no one knows how they feel inside. sometimes i feel like a clown. where i smiled too much to not show it. there were times where i was smiling practically to myself. way too wide that i guess i was trying too hard to surpress wat i actually felt. i ve nvr gotten over my mum. pretty sad eh? *smiles*
there were time i felt embarrassed, cos tears did roll dwn my cheeks when i was alone by myself in e train. anywhere, anytime. dats y i let my fringe cover my eyes. it gets useful at time. arh pathetic eh? dun even noe why im typing this down. suddenly i feel remorseful. haf to divert my thinking to something else. oh yeah. work is good. im lacking alot of stuffs in some way but at the same im getting the same kind of love from ppl arnd me. frm my aunts..my uncs n my frens...
eh i can be emo k. ask matin!! *smiles*


i feel like typing in purple. or maybe pink? pink is a happy colour? i need ur happy sweets(i mean gummies) daph!! lol. o well. i LOVE you GUYS. the only way to make myself feel better. maroon is good. or is this brown?? practising my colour combination. not turning out well tho. anyway. i used to think that, if i like a guy, the least i can do is to tell him. nvr hold back ur feelings. ive got nth to lose anyway. so yeah. i did dat a couple of times, ended up in a r/s. things didn turn out well and yeah. still frens but nvr close. eh anyway dey were not close frens to begin with. it was nice when someone did reciprocate. but i wasnt serious abt it. the frenship. or anything. i din give a damn if something bad gonna happen.( i was nvr into frens with guys thingy). i was always ready to take the risk. nvr the one to back down. cos, u c, i live life once. o well dats wat i tot so.i mean yesh u do live life once. wat i meant is.there is no more such thing as taking a risk for the fun of it. cos ur a gd fren 2 begin wif. i've totally lost the meaning of "risk". im nt myself. i think? for the sake of not losing you. i guess this gt to be right. it seems so right but feels so wrong. haha im inspired by my dear fren, mark chen, to type this down. im proud of you. *winks* but anyway. i love you all the same.very much dat all i want is 4 u to be happy. *smiles* i rather haf a few great frens to a single bf. i learnt that the hard way. *winks* i trust myself. always learn from mistakes eh.

and. im ALWAYS here. for anyone out there n to my dear frens. always here. its a promise. *winks*