im back?

i haven been blogging for long. bcos of the net prob and every time i clicked on publish my post, it went crazy. so pardon me ya.

ALOT of things happened for the past few weeks. had my ups and downs but most importantly im definitely HAPPY now. as in really happy. i dunno. im quite settled with my decision. to just follow my heart. that i want nothing back in return but to just give. and of cos feel. not think.
i dun really care whether i gonna get hurt or not cos in the end no matter wat decision i make, i'll definitely get hurt. like i said in my previous posts, hurt wont hurt if you don't think about it. mind over matter. so yep. heart. i got tired of thinking logically. another thing that is making me happy is that, my craves for chocolate is not that bad now. i've gt to control my intake of chocos. *grin* im glad. ive got cravings for other things instead.

and my work at TTSH was nt dat good. i had ppl bringing me down, telling me to go on diet or watever crap which i don't understand why. thank god i've ppl telling me im fine just the way i am so im just gonna let it pass and not get bothered abt it. but my conversations with Dr Yap was good. there is just something manly about him. the way he is in control but yet vulnerable. hmmmm...


trainings... hmmm. i dont have much comment. i just hope things will get better. im only human. i cant accustom myself to every single human. so be it.

i went out with a fren of mine from the interior design side. we met up cos he's gg NS soon and he wants to see me so yep. anyway we had our meal and then talked for awhile. and then his fren came along. and that fren of his is an NS boy, still serving last few months of his ns. and so we talked abt future, plans, women( i was rather open minded towards dat part of conversation cos i had to agree there r truths in it) and money. yep. his fren was rather matured and i've got to say cool. tho he's very mat-ish. but hey he's doing rather fine, having a business of his own. and he's 23. and his advices and qns made me think twice abt everything. he knows better cos he's at a stage where he wont b serving NS anymore soon and he gt to plan ahead. so sharing his insight was rather good for me i guess. i've learnt dat i need to plan at least 10 yrs ahead, got to know what i wanna do and its driving me crazy now. heh.

hmm. and i went pass my old hse at haig road. it was good. had memories there that i will NEVER forget. i wanna buy back my old hse can?

wat else.have been really a gd girl. ive been reading up on alot of things. brainwashing myself. lol
nak seribu daya, tak nak seribu dalih. how true.

and i MISS you. yes you. mr coconut. i miss the kelapa too. o well. soon ya

o ya. 4PM. haha been enjoying my trip there. i kind of got used to the environment there. great ppl, nice kids(minus the restless-ness & the naughtiness) and the camp meetings all that just made me bond with them more. it's all good. i like it there. i think. the only minus point is the transport money. damn killer. but o well, all for good cause.

and oh farah, kite rindu awak lah. bila awak nak dtg trg!??!!?!? lol.

nothing can bring me down except myself. *smiles* nothing can make me happy except myself too.