indulge...

i've been indulging in secret little tots in my mind. just those tiny little ones that makes me grin from ear to ear. those beautiful ones. arhhh... i cant help but smile. makes me feel all warmed up.

i've had moments when i don't care about anything. that all i wanna do is give. like quoted from someone's blog "~~altruistic~~ : adj showing unselfish concern for the welfare of others"
that i dun care whether the feeling is reciprocated or not, i just want to feel. its how stupid i can be. but yeah. i'll get over it.

and so yesh. im trying to comfort myself here. that its not wrong. *smiles* and i dun care how frustrating it is to be like this. heh heh heh.

anyway i just got back from my tuition thingy. met their parents. it was easy. i managed to get my message across. you know, i just wonder how easy parents let go of their responsibilities to teachers. and they think that its adequate for the kids to spend their time in skool and then not bother bout their own kids when they got home from school. the parents just let them be and not show abit of concern. im saying this is in general. been reading the papers bout how kids turned wild because of lack attention from parents. Parents will sure ask, have you done your homework or revised but not much action taken. This make the students/kids very lazy to study cos they are too pampered. very. Like one of my fren said, she rather teach a kid who is not very academically inclined to a kid who is very lazy and stubborn. I find this issue very disturbing. How to break away from this pattern of parenting? or maybe its just the way it is. sigh, i have parents complaining kids talking back, them rather playing soccer or watching tv and den when it comes to doing work they go all draggy. what's the problem? hmmm o well.
sad eh. i know its not easy to be a parent, i cant say much for myself too. who knows, in the future? i'll probably understand better.

o well, i got to go to my aunt hse 6th floor above!!! *smiles*

anyway just a song...quotes of it
another way to express myself eh...

I bruise easily -- Natasha Bedingfield

I found you fingerprints on a glass of wine
Do you know you're leaving them
all over this heart of mine too
But if i never take this leap of faith
I'll never know
So im learning to fall
with no safety net to cushion the blow

Anyone who can touch you
can hurt you or heal you
Anyone who can reach you
can love you or leave you

cheerioz....