bye i guess

been a awhile since the last i updated. been rather keeping to myself.

nth much to update really.

im feeling disgusted. at how things are. acceptance. things ppl do. ignorance.
i just hate the feeling. such feelings nvr failed to resurface.

the pretentious upfront of everything. how everything is just a made up. nothing is ever real anymore. its like looking something that is a translucent glass wall. you know what's going on behind that wall due to the shadows, but the fact that it is translucent sicken the tot. don't understand? doesn matter. bottom line is, mayb i shouldn say much. will just make you beware of me.

n the fact that we do get so caught up in our life, its just unforgiveable. i dunno why im babbling about this. it just gets to me. ppl gets to me. reality gets to me. maybe i want so much for everything to be right for everyone dat it kills me to see its not happening. maybe i shldnt bother so much. no one cares rite?

i had to go for jogging. hoping that maybe, the *endorphins wld ease the pain and eat up all those tots i had on my mind. it did i guess. it was just screaming out of my head slowly. den tots of hw to make myself feel better.maybe i deserve that lil pretty slip ons. i dunno. or maybe a haircut? after gg on for rounds, it just got numb. was just stoned. probably dats y i fell the other time. nth cld in or go out.

im just a numbed person. i have no feelings. indifference to anything. or maybe i MAKE myself numb to certain things. cos apparently i had enough emotions to tear up while reading some book. seems like a pretty long entry to me.
noe wat, don't let what ive mentioned above get to you. i think its just my lack of sleep and my excitement. lack of slp suh is a grumpy suh. i cant control what i say. not filtered. nt tactful. incoherency. im not saying that when im wide awake, whatever i say is fake. its still the truth but put in a nicer way of sentence structure. or words. wif no intention of hurting feelings. sorry

my dislikeness for guys has increased. somehow. am i opening up? cos im scaring myself.

hw i wish i can erase certain phase of my life. cos im pretty sure im nt fated to face it again.

*Any of a group of peptide hormones that bind to opiate receptors and are found mainly in the brain. Endorphins reduce the sensation of pain and affect emotions.














took this pic at NewSpace, thanks to booba new digicam.
lil things dat cheers me up. thks 2 u. =)













THE goreng pisang that i loveD. delicious. pisang tanduk. haha and the jemput2 also.=D












me n booba. o well. wasting our time during lunch. cos work sux n din want to waste it in the office.

noe wat. i tink dis may just be the last entry.