haha okay im just bored. waiting for ppl to get ready. ok think gtg nw.
Saturday, October 30, 2004
my mood is rather somber now. i spent the whole day reading d book. finished it already. gifs me the goosebumps.
m looking at last yr's hari raya pictures. don't know why i chose to look at it.
my late mum looked pretty healthy, her smiles.
im sorry, cos every week der will b an entry of my late mum n me sounding sorrowful.
but i cant help it.
this year is going to b different.
family photo shots will b incomplete.
i just hope i can cope well when the day comes.
urgh, i hate it when im feeling this way.
miss her. 2 more weeks rite?
argh, if only i knew it wld b the last. probably i wld haf cherished her more...
if only...
m looking at last yr's hari raya pictures. don't know why i chose to look at it.
my late mum looked pretty healthy, her smiles.
im sorry, cos every week der will b an entry of my late mum n me sounding sorrowful.
but i cant help it.
this year is going to b different.
family photo shots will b incomplete.
i just hope i can cope well when the day comes.
urgh, i hate it when im feeling this way.
miss her. 2 more weeks rite?
argh, if only i knew it wld b the last. probably i wld haf cherished her more...
if only...
hmm aint happy bt dat tag msg. i tink i probably noe hu did dat. a lil bit tacky rite. but i shall not bother. din interest me at all.
y do ppl do certain things dat hurt another party just for the fun of it? im not saying dat i'm hurt by that stupid tag. but to come to think of it, most ppl do this kind if thing just to c wat the reaction will b. n if dat particular person counter back, the happier the person will be. urgh. lame.
i wish i can turn back time. retrieve back watever i said. i feel like curling myself up and just continue sleeping. and not wake up. till the right time. so much for having faith.
y cant ppl be more forgiving? i tink i noe the ans. bcos they think that by being more forgiving means letting them step all over the head? y is life so contradicting? y do we always contradict ourselves? y do i even think of all this when it's pointless in the end? its bcos im intrigued by how ppl behave n how ppl feel. n most of the time i upset myself by just thinking of the reasons why ppl resort to the acts dat dey do or did.
if only there is a book that can answer all my questions. if only. i question myself too much. its a wonder dat im still alive.
i need my grandma now.her presence wld probably soothe my heart ache.
y do ppl do certain things dat hurt another party just for the fun of it? im not saying dat i'm hurt by that stupid tag. but to come to think of it, most ppl do this kind if thing just to c wat the reaction will b. n if dat particular person counter back, the happier the person will be. urgh. lame.
i wish i can turn back time. retrieve back watever i said. i feel like curling myself up and just continue sleeping. and not wake up. till the right time. so much for having faith.
y cant ppl be more forgiving? i tink i noe the ans. bcos they think that by being more forgiving means letting them step all over the head? y is life so contradicting? y do we always contradict ourselves? y do i even think of all this when it's pointless in the end? its bcos im intrigued by how ppl behave n how ppl feel. n most of the time i upset myself by just thinking of the reasons why ppl resort to the acts dat dey do or did.
if only there is a book that can answer all my questions. if only. i question myself too much. its a wonder dat im still alive.
i need my grandma now.her presence wld probably soothe my heart ache.
Friday, October 29, 2004
muahaha, feeling good today.
m drinking strawberry banana milkshake. splendid. haah i like
went meiji today wif vic, cand n jean. haha bought alot of stuffs but i especially lyk that strawberry wif white choco. pure heaven. feel like running back to warehse nw n buy more but haf to wait till next wk. too bad the shop at punggol plaza dun haf dat choco.
went to skool to do some stuff n den went back hm wif vic n candy. tink i've said alot of things dat i shldnt haf said. but sorry anyway.
i got another book to read. another thing dat makes me happy.
damn, my fren has a condo at CCK n she's asking anyone hu wants to rent it. condo!! bah i cant. nt right now. need to find a job first. i wanna live independently. no guys, no aunties, no uncs to support me, juz ol plain me. i wanna experience dat. one day.
n i managed to cover dat nav bar. haha yay.
m drinking strawberry banana milkshake. splendid. haah i like
went meiji today wif vic, cand n jean. haha bought alot of stuffs but i especially lyk that strawberry wif white choco. pure heaven. feel like running back to warehse nw n buy more but haf to wait till next wk. too bad the shop at punggol plaza dun haf dat choco.
went to skool to do some stuff n den went back hm wif vic n candy. tink i've said alot of things dat i shldnt haf said. but sorry anyway.
i got another book to read. another thing dat makes me happy.
damn, my fren has a condo at CCK n she's asking anyone hu wants to rent it. condo!! bah i cant. nt right now. need to find a job first. i wanna live independently. no guys, no aunties, no uncs to support me, juz ol plain me. i wanna experience dat. one day.
n i managed to cover dat nav bar. haha yay.
im nt pretty sure of wat to say now.
i've matured alot, i've learnt to b more patient. im nt so impulsive now. it helps in a way, at least i wont regret doing some stuffs... lyk for now. i so badly wanna ask u certain things but im refraining from it. i've been refraining myself frm doing alot of things. lyk telling u hw i feel? sometimes it is best to let nature takes its place. it's driving me mad, to think bt it all the time n do nth bt it. believe me, cos im a firm believer of doing something rather den juz sit n think.i noe its wrg, but it wont hurt rite to even think bt it?
but i guess for nw, single is d way to go.
anyway i haf chalet tmr, fri, sat n sun. i nt sure if im gg. i wanna go tmr nite n sat nite which is bbq nite. i wanna c my old frens.but i haf to help someone wif his work so yeah. mayb after dat? juz rush down to d chalet. cos i wanna stay at home on sat nite. got some fam thingy. shall c wat's the situation lyk tmr. i lyk to do things last min. more exciting. heh.
i've matured alot, i've learnt to b more patient. im nt so impulsive now. it helps in a way, at least i wont regret doing some stuffs... lyk for now. i so badly wanna ask u certain things but im refraining from it. i've been refraining myself frm doing alot of things. lyk telling u hw i feel? sometimes it is best to let nature takes its place. it's driving me mad, to think bt it all the time n do nth bt it. believe me, cos im a firm believer of doing something rather den juz sit n think.i noe its wrg, but it wont hurt rite to even think bt it?
but i guess for nw, single is d way to go.
anyway i haf chalet tmr, fri, sat n sun. i nt sure if im gg. i wanna go tmr nite n sat nite which is bbq nite. i wanna c my old frens.but i haf to help someone wif his work so yeah. mayb after dat? juz rush down to d chalet. cos i wanna stay at home on sat nite. got some fam thingy. shall c wat's the situation lyk tmr. i lyk to do things last min. more exciting. heh.
Thursday, October 28, 2004
wnt to e lollipop girl's hse juz to hang out. hmmm home juz seems boring at d moment.
haha watched louis khoo show. he's gd looking eh. sammi can b pretty at certain angle.
eh thanks ar girl. lol for acc me? lol n the show too.
went out to meet my sec skool frens. saw plenty of dem today. saw afiq n eleta at tamp.
met jeev,vic,lionel n krishant. lol. good to c dem cos i haven seen dem for ages. went parkway parade n tok for awhile. had to go off early. m glad dey r still the same, juz dat dey picked up a nasty habit. smoking. heh. especially jeev, wat a let down. din get to c sam, but hu cares eh. e smoking gang. puffing their lives away. i haf nth to say. i've no rights over wat dey wanna do. juz feel sad. bah. dun 1 2 tink bt it. it irks me alot. especially dat day.
haha watched louis khoo show. he's gd looking eh. sammi can b pretty at certain angle.
eh thanks ar girl. lol for acc me? lol n the show too.
went out to meet my sec skool frens. saw plenty of dem today. saw afiq n eleta at tamp.
met jeev,vic,lionel n krishant. lol. good to c dem cos i haven seen dem for ages. went parkway parade n tok for awhile. had to go off early. m glad dey r still the same, juz dat dey picked up a nasty habit. smoking. heh. especially jeev, wat a let down. din get to c sam, but hu cares eh. e smoking gang. puffing their lives away. i haf nth to say. i've no rights over wat dey wanna do. juz feel sad. bah. dun 1 2 tink bt it. it irks me alot. especially dat day.
morning...
awake cos ameera keep pulling me out of the bed. she's bored. been asking me to sing n she wld record my voice. heh. wif this sorethroat, it sounds lyk frog croaking. lol she's seriously bored. i tot kids r self entertaining? well shows she adores me very much. *grin*
went geylang wif my sis n sur(last min thingy) yest. we broke fast together but after dat, well something happened n me n my sis went walking arnd without him. i guess such circumstances is normal wif sur eh? it wasnt dat packed, saw alot of delicious food, ayam percik, deng2, burger ramli, hotdog bread, otah2..haha but too bad we were too full. but the bbq honeyed wings was good. n the brownie too. lol din c any good looking guys at all, only mats. such a disappointment.
the girls too, faces juz filled wif 1inch of make up, heh. anyway fiza!!! i saw the bangles lyk the one u bought at montip. its going for 5 bucks eh. it's pretty. wanted 2 buy yest but decided to wait for u guys. so yah, when r we going?
went home wif e big guy! haha sent us off to pasir ris cos he was feeling guilty. well he should be. lol n abt the next wk thingy, insya-allah eh, provided we haf free transport home. haha so good to c him again. back to entertaining ameera. dat's wat i've been doing. im still worried bt presentation. heh.
n guys,pls check out this webby. http://furor.thecasualty.org/testing.html . my fren's. she's a handycrafted gerl. check it out n c if u wanna buy anything. :P juz the earrings n e anklets
awake cos ameera keep pulling me out of the bed. she's bored. been asking me to sing n she wld record my voice. heh. wif this sorethroat, it sounds lyk frog croaking. lol she's seriously bored. i tot kids r self entertaining? well shows she adores me very much. *grin*
went geylang wif my sis n sur(last min thingy) yest. we broke fast together but after dat, well something happened n me n my sis went walking arnd without him. i guess such circumstances is normal wif sur eh? it wasnt dat packed, saw alot of delicious food, ayam percik, deng2, burger ramli, hotdog bread, otah2..haha but too bad we were too full. but the bbq honeyed wings was good. n the brownie too. lol din c any good looking guys at all, only mats. such a disappointment.
the girls too, faces juz filled wif 1inch of make up, heh. anyway fiza!!! i saw the bangles lyk the one u bought at montip. its going for 5 bucks eh. it's pretty. wanted 2 buy yest but decided to wait for u guys. so yah, when r we going?
went home wif e big guy! haha sent us off to pasir ris cos he was feeling guilty. well he should be. lol n abt the next wk thingy, insya-allah eh, provided we haf free transport home. haha so good to c him again. back to entertaining ameera. dat's wat i've been doing. im still worried bt presentation. heh.
n guys,pls check out this webby. http://furor.thecasualty.org/testing.html . my fren's. she's a handycrafted gerl. check it out n c if u wanna buy anything. :P juz the earrings n e anklets
Wednesday, October 27, 2004
"Not to lose contact with each other,Not to forget each other.Must contact & meet each other more often in the future"- a pact i made today. on 27.10.2004.
hmmm i juz remembered, it's two mths already, ever since she passed away. i was too busy doing my work. i miss her alot suddenly. her presence. hmmm heh k this is a third time.
hmmm i juz remembered, it's two mths already, ever since she passed away. i was too busy doing my work. i miss her alot suddenly. her presence. hmmm heh k this is a third time.
im feeling really restless. nth to do. someone asked me out but it was last min.
2nd time blogging eh.
i wonder y issit so diff for guys to give in? even for a tiny little bit?
anyway i've booked my sis. to go out. haha visiting geylang soon. it's better den nth tho i hate gg der wif my sis only cos i've gt no one to seek protection frm.nt dat im vulnerable but the situation der very tight. i hate crowded places, makes me feel uncomfortable. it's lyk getting asthma attack. u cant breathe, u feel irritated. lol
nobody's life is filled wif perfect little moments, if der were, then dey wouldnt be perfect little moments. they would just be normal.
im perfectly happy wif d way i am now.
2nd time blogging eh.
i wonder y issit so diff for guys to give in? even for a tiny little bit?
anyway i've booked my sis. to go out. haha visiting geylang soon. it's better den nth tho i hate gg der wif my sis only cos i've gt no one to seek protection frm.nt dat im vulnerable but the situation der very tight. i hate crowded places, makes me feel uncomfortable. it's lyk getting asthma attack. u cant breathe, u feel irritated. lol
nobody's life is filled wif perfect little moments, if der were, then dey wouldnt be perfect little moments. they would just be normal.
im perfectly happy wif d way i am now.
all green eh?
juz gt the sudden fetish for green. green is sexy huh? heh dat's wat one of my fren said.
anyway i shall nt bother bt ppl's comment. haha as long as i lyk it, this layout will b here. n the thing is i did it myself. so yeah i lyk it. spent the whole day doing it. cos i was bored.
im scared of my presentation on thurs. urgh. i mean, to the extend of redoing it? im really worried. scared more lyk it. i dun wanna fail n resubmit it. im sure i din do much work. nth to b proud of. shit shit shit. can i dun go 4 the presentation? crit sux. architorture sux. in a certain ways, if der isn any crit, deadlines within 1 mth, lecturers dat turn horrible on crit days n slpless nite, i tink it wld haf been better but sad to say dat's wat architorture is all abt. shit lah, thanks for making me worried! nw i'm gonna get slpless nites again.
anyway im missing the babes. dun tink will b seeing dem till the end of next week. hope dey r gg for the free movie on fri. fiza... pretty pls my pretty princess?so tacky lol pergi lah...i will b ur dayang2 till skool reopen.can rite? lol
think gg geylang again this weekend. dey haf been going der every weekend. kate shopping raya. cant wait to go der myself. probably dat explains all those green fetish. hari raya coming wat! lol
Tuesday, October 26, 2004
nt feeling gd. i practically gt no voice. so much for poison fights poison. hmmrp. nvm
dun feel lyk toking much either.
u guys asked, did i cry?
i din, cos it haven really gt into me.
but now,the feeling of remorse n loneliness juz starts to creep into me.
juz lyk the other time, i stayed strong till the very last...
i juz lost another person in my life.
r u wondering y am i crapping all this shit.
i've gt to take each day as it is.
i want us to be able to tok to each other lyk before,
u telling me lame stuffs, ur shoes, ur buys, ur frens,
cos i pretty much enjoyed ur presence
its weird eh, only when ppl do get apart, dey starts to appreciate their gd times together.
cos i am now, of our time of two yrs together.
i've gt nth to say, for now.
it hurts pretty much the same way ur feeling now.
i tink u wld be juz killing urself if u stays wif me,
im no longer the person i was
sorry for dat, for dat happen cos of one fateful event.
mayb ur mum were right. heh
we were expecting too much from each other, its best we become the bestest fren?? hw bt dat? u said im second on ur list rite? lol
watever it is, dun worry
im nt jumping wif joy dat im freed.
it sucks. but hey im strong right? lol
hmm, anyway the novel dat im reading nw, is pretty sad.
tells a story bt a lady hu loves her husband very much, but he died ltr cos of a brain tumour
it's pretty sad, juz made me think hw awful it feels to lose ur loved ones. but yeah the husband was prepared for his death n planned everything. after his death, his wife received notes frm him, guiding her to move on. sad eh, but ive yet to finish the book. im free anyway now. till next sem eh! my presentation is on thurs. 4th nov. im nt really looking forward to dat day. :D
dunno ar. tink my sorethroat getting bad eh, i cldn help it, the fried chicken looked so gd.
der is alot of things on mind but gt to concentrate on my work.
hmmm, lyk frenships, my frens...
stuffs dat were nt meant to b revealed r revealed, n wat happens after dat? juz made me think
am i dat bad?, to b left out? mayb i am. in a certain way. boring, too quiet? lame? i nt sure.
wat issit bt me dat made dem leave me out? tell me chester. i tink u shld noe it better. u were wif dem.
everyone wants to b needed n wanted by everyone. aint i rite? it feels sucky to noe otherwise.
i tink everyone has their own flaws. mayb i did neglect some ppl in my life, juz dat i din notice it.
if i do, pls tell me so. am i dat arrogant? am i too involved in my own "world"? mayb i am. shall nt tink bt it. it's juz life. dat's hw it goes. ppl either hate u or love u. i hate it when i found out something dat im nt supposed to noe. i've gt to live with it knowing dat i was nvr welcomed.
glad it ended. shall juz make do wif watever i haf, cherish everyone. mayb im too self centred, or mayb i was juz trying hard, or mayb it's bcos of wat im typing now makes me intolerable. heh.
alrite. shall stop wif dat nonsense. life is too good to get stuck in the past. i wanna join lion reds!! again. soon, i can feel it coming. lol i wanna play lyk a pro. lol rite *rolls eyes* but yeah, i tink i wana join soon.
dun feel lyk toking much either.
u guys asked, did i cry?
i din, cos it haven really gt into me.
but now,the feeling of remorse n loneliness juz starts to creep into me.
juz lyk the other time, i stayed strong till the very last...
i juz lost another person in my life.
r u wondering y am i crapping all this shit.
i've gt to take each day as it is.
i want us to be able to tok to each other lyk before,
u telling me lame stuffs, ur shoes, ur buys, ur frens,
cos i pretty much enjoyed ur presence
its weird eh, only when ppl do get apart, dey starts to appreciate their gd times together.
cos i am now, of our time of two yrs together.
i've gt nth to say, for now.
it hurts pretty much the same way ur feeling now.
i tink u wld be juz killing urself if u stays wif me,
im no longer the person i was
sorry for dat, for dat happen cos of one fateful event.
mayb ur mum were right. heh
we were expecting too much from each other, its best we become the bestest fren?? hw bt dat? u said im second on ur list rite? lol
watever it is, dun worry
im nt jumping wif joy dat im freed.
it sucks. but hey im strong right? lol
hmm, anyway the novel dat im reading nw, is pretty sad.
tells a story bt a lady hu loves her husband very much, but he died ltr cos of a brain tumour
it's pretty sad, juz made me think hw awful it feels to lose ur loved ones. but yeah the husband was prepared for his death n planned everything. after his death, his wife received notes frm him, guiding her to move on. sad eh, but ive yet to finish the book. im free anyway now. till next sem eh! my presentation is on thurs. 4th nov. im nt really looking forward to dat day. :D
Sunday, October 24, 2004
model is my only hope..
heh i tink my model is my only hope to show my design.but it sucks.dunno ar. tink my sorethroat getting bad eh, i cldn help it, the fried chicken looked so gd.
der is alot of things on mind but gt to concentrate on my work.
hmmm, lyk frenships, my frens...
stuffs dat were nt meant to b revealed r revealed, n wat happens after dat? juz made me think
am i dat bad?, to b left out? mayb i am. in a certain way. boring, too quiet? lame? i nt sure.
wat issit bt me dat made dem leave me out? tell me chester. i tink u shld noe it better. u were wif dem.
everyone wants to b needed n wanted by everyone. aint i rite? it feels sucky to noe otherwise.
i tink everyone has their own flaws. mayb i did neglect some ppl in my life, juz dat i din notice it.
if i do, pls tell me so. am i dat arrogant? am i too involved in my own "world"? mayb i am. shall nt tink bt it. it's juz life. dat's hw it goes. ppl either hate u or love u. i hate it when i found out something dat im nt supposed to noe. i've gt to live with it knowing dat i was nvr welcomed.
glad it ended. shall juz make do wif watever i haf, cherish everyone. mayb im too self centred, or mayb i was juz trying hard, or mayb it's bcos of wat im typing now makes me intolerable. heh.
alrite. shall stop wif dat nonsense. life is too good to get stuck in the past. i wanna join lion reds!! again. soon, i can feel it coming. lol i wanna play lyk a pro. lol rite *rolls eyes* but yeah, i tink i wana join soon.
Friday, October 22, 2004
hmm taking a short break frm my work. haven been getting enuff slp. juz a couple of hrs. i dun feel lethargic, i guess im feeling numbed. stoned. juz work work work chanting in my head.
im nt feeling good, heh i tink i getting sorethroat. must b dat kit kat chunky. but i lyk, my fav.
niway im feelin a little bit relaxed now. and coffee works for me eh. juz add extra dose, really strong ones. makes me feel extra restless, jumpy n tensed
n im sorry, i've tot it out. i really think it's impossible. its getting intolerable. im sorry. really i am. u abhore everything dat i lyk to do, n i hate almost everything dat u lyk to do. nth is right. tmr is the day eh? 2 yrs. its nth, if we cant work things out. mon shall b the judgement day. our submission day. mayb my mind wont b so clouded den. im tinking too much at the moment.
When it rains, well it rains
Oh my heart don't feel the same
Nothing change, nothing change
Comrade I don't feel the same
With my foot to the floor
Hear my key turn in the door
Holding back what's in store
When a girl wants a little bit more
What's a girl like me to do
When she don't get a thing from you
I wanna go where you're going to
Have to do what you have to do
What's a girl supposed to try
When all you do is criticise
Pretty soon you'll realiseI can see it,
I can see it in a boy's eyessee it in a boy's, see it in a boy's eyes
Well it rains, when it rains
Oh my heart don't feel the same
There's a sun in my skyY
ou don't see it, you don't even try
But you'll die, before you cry
Solitude is where you fly
You don't say this ain't right
But I see it in your eyes
What's a girl like me to do
When she don't get a thing from you
I wanna go where you're going to
Have to do what you have to do
What's a girl supposed to try
When all you do is criticise
Pretty soon you'll realiseI can see it,
I can see it in a boy's eyessee it in a boy's, see it in a boy's eyes
What's a girl like me to do
When she don't get a thing from you
I wanna know where you're going to
Have to do what you have to do
What's a girl supposed to say
Just turn around and walk away
Pretty soon you'll realise I can see it
I can see it in a boy's eyes see it in a boy's, see it in a boy's eyes
Pretty suit my mood now. m starting to lyk the song. see it in a boy's eyes
im nt feeling good, heh i tink i getting sorethroat. must b dat kit kat chunky. but i lyk, my fav.
niway im feelin a little bit relaxed now. and coffee works for me eh. juz add extra dose, really strong ones. makes me feel extra restless, jumpy n tensed
n im sorry, i've tot it out. i really think it's impossible. its getting intolerable. im sorry. really i am. u abhore everything dat i lyk to do, n i hate almost everything dat u lyk to do. nth is right. tmr is the day eh? 2 yrs. its nth, if we cant work things out. mon shall b the judgement day. our submission day. mayb my mind wont b so clouded den. im tinking too much at the moment.
When it rains, well it rains
Oh my heart don't feel the same
Nothing change, nothing change
Comrade I don't feel the same
With my foot to the floor
Hear my key turn in the door
Holding back what's in store
When a girl wants a little bit more
What's a girl like me to do
When she don't get a thing from you
I wanna go where you're going to
Have to do what you have to do
What's a girl supposed to try
When all you do is criticise
Pretty soon you'll realiseI can see it,
I can see it in a boy's eyessee it in a boy's, see it in a boy's eyes
Well it rains, when it rains
Oh my heart don't feel the same
There's a sun in my skyY
ou don't see it, you don't even try
But you'll die, before you cry
Solitude is where you fly
You don't say this ain't right
But I see it in your eyes
What's a girl like me to do
When she don't get a thing from you
I wanna go where you're going to
Have to do what you have to do
What's a girl supposed to try
When all you do is criticise
Pretty soon you'll realiseI can see it,
I can see it in a boy's eyessee it in a boy's, see it in a boy's eyes
What's a girl like me to do
When she don't get a thing from you
I wanna know where you're going to
Have to do what you have to do
What's a girl supposed to say
Just turn around and walk away
Pretty soon you'll realise I can see it
I can see it in a boy's eyes see it in a boy's, see it in a boy's eyes
Pretty suit my mood now. m starting to lyk the song. see it in a boy's eyes
im touched, really. shocked too. nvr tot dey wld do this for me.
dun really noe hw to pay dem back. i tink the least i can do is to work harder
nvr noe der r such kind souls. i mean i noe dey exist but nvr expected dem to touch my heart.
im really shocked. dey cared. cant seem to recover frm it.
in case ur wondering hu dey r, dey r my lecturers.
makes me even more determined to b a BETTER person. dey gif me hopes, bt beings lyk us.
we r nt dat bad eh? im indebted to dem.
These words are my own, from my heart flow,
I love you, i love you, i love you, i love you,
There's no other way to better say
I love you, i love you
dun really noe hw to pay dem back. i tink the least i can do is to work harder
nvr noe der r such kind souls. i mean i noe dey exist but nvr expected dem to touch my heart.
im really shocked. dey cared. cant seem to recover frm it.
in case ur wondering hu dey r, dey r my lecturers.
makes me even more determined to b a BETTER person. dey gif me hopes, bt beings lyk us.
we r nt dat bad eh? im indebted to dem.
These words are my own, from my heart flow,
I love you, i love you, i love you, i love you,
There's no other way to better say
I love you, i love you
Thursday, October 21, 2004
i suck at controlling my feelings,
if der is anything dat ive learnt, its dat feelings cant b controlled.
n im such a softie. heh i hate it.
if der is anything dat ive learnt, its dat feelings cant b controlled.
n im such a softie. heh i hate it.
Tuesday, October 19, 2004
i cldnt help it but
my tears juz came down streaming down my cheeks
everything juz crashing down on me
everything..every single thing...
the tots of ramadhan, no longer wat it used to be
damn it. i dun 1 2 think bt it but it's inevitable
i feel god damn lonely. nt dat anyone noticed...
my last kiss for her, her images on my mind...
but i've gt to move on, really i do
the world is nt slowing down for me
i tink im gonna get some rest.
my headache is killing me
feel lyk penning everything down but i cant
been gg thru some rough patches
but it seems lyk it has come to an end
im nt really sure where this is going
tug of war, dat's wat im feeling now
part of me wanna stay but
another part of me juz wanna pack n leave
im sorry, 4 all d pain dat i brought u thru
4 all d sacrifices u made was nth but futile
i tink u i noe u too well
it's always unpredictable eh
im still arnd, nt dead
dun ignore me pls
sorry it had to end this way
u meant much more to me den u think
its difficult, to look forward without u
but i'll try
my tears juz came down streaming down my cheeks
everything juz crashing down on me
everything..every single thing...
the tots of ramadhan, no longer wat it used to be
damn it. i dun 1 2 think bt it but it's inevitable
i feel god damn lonely. nt dat anyone noticed...
my last kiss for her, her images on my mind...
but i've gt to move on, really i do
the world is nt slowing down for me
i tink im gonna get some rest.
my headache is killing me
time heals all wounds but some last forever...
m feeling real down nowfeel lyk penning everything down but i cant
been gg thru some rough patches
but it seems lyk it has come to an end
im nt really sure where this is going
tug of war, dat's wat im feeling now
part of me wanna stay but
another part of me juz wanna pack n leave
im sorry, 4 all d pain dat i brought u thru
4 all d sacrifices u made was nth but futile
i tink u i noe u too well
it's always unpredictable eh
im still arnd, nt dead
dun ignore me pls
sorry it had to end this way
u meant much more to me den u think
its difficult, to look forward without u
but i'll try
Monday, October 18, 2004
Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you?
Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright
No you don't know what it's like to be like me...
To be hurt, to feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when your down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
But no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like...
Welcome to my life
Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more
Before your life is over?
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With the big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside your bleeding?
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright
No you don't know what it's like to be like me...
No one ever lied straight to your face
And no one ever stabs you in the back
You might think I'm happy, but I'm not gonna be okay
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
You never had to work, it was always there
You don't know what it's like, what it's like...
To be hurt, to feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
But no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like...
Welcome to my life
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you?
Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright
No you don't know what it's like to be like me...
To be hurt, to feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when your down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
But no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like...
Welcome to my life
Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more
Before your life is over?
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With the big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside your bleeding?
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright
No you don't know what it's like to be like me...
No one ever lied straight to your face
And no one ever stabs you in the back
You might think I'm happy, but I'm not gonna be okay
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
You never had to work, it was always there
You don't know what it's like, what it's like...
To be hurt, to feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
But no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like...
Welcome to my life
Sunday, October 17, 2004
haha u noe finally i get to eat som som!!! i've been craving for it ever since i drmt of it. haha my aunt bought it from geylang serai since dey gt transport. so nice. din expect it at all. i drmt my aunt bought it for me n gaf me e frozen one cos i lyk to eat it frozen wif d suga water. :D wah i enjoyed my day today. really. aha cant stop smiling eh. n i bought myself the meiji jelly beans. influenced by someone ar. heh wanted 2 buy dat strawberry chocolate jelly but im getting fat lah. lol
n im super duper full. dun feel lyk doing work. bah. but must do ar.
so i gt to go back to my boring routine, facing the comp n do my work. urgh. irritating.
eh miss my oinks. :P
but i wanna catch pearl harbor. got josh hartnett. the day juz keep getting better eh.
n im super duper full. dun feel lyk doing work. bah. but must do ar.
so i gt to go back to my boring routine, facing the comp n do my work. urgh. irritating.
eh miss my oinks. :P
but i wanna catch pearl harbor. got josh hartnett. the day juz keep getting better eh.
muahahahaha today's dinner gonna b good. *grinning* haha
got chicken rice, calamari, sotong balls, otah2 n all my fav!! haha and the fact dat my aunts n uncs came over to break fast together makes it even more merrier. i love this kind of outing.
i love ppl loving each other, which i tink it's very rare now so i cherish moments lyk this. :D
haha alrite think it's time to break fast soon. :D
miss d babes.
miss everything dat we used to do
but its no point holding on to d past.
got chicken rice, calamari, sotong balls, otah2 n all my fav!! haha and the fact dat my aunts n uncs came over to break fast together makes it even more merrier. i love this kind of outing.
i love ppl loving each other, which i tink it's very rare now so i cherish moments lyk this. :D
haha alrite think it's time to break fast soon. :D
miss d babes.
miss everything dat we used to do
but its no point holding on to d past.
Friday, October 15, 2004
heh, im feeling super tired.
i love fasting mth. the air seems fresher. i feel good. i feel better. it's juz the mth.
anyway, i was juz thinking,when someone likes a person but not reciprocated, but after sometime, dat person developed feelings for dat someone but dat someone started to feel distant, not much feelings left for dat person.n both of dem end up getting hurt. hmm mayb nt get hurt, but the feeling of regret is der.y is dat always the case?can u understand wat i've juz typed?
y issit hard to maintain a gd r/s? we cant c eye to eye, so?
i love fasting mth. the air seems fresher. i feel good. i feel better. it's juz the mth.
anyway, i was juz thinking,when someone likes a person but not reciprocated, but after sometime, dat person developed feelings for dat someone but dat someone started to feel distant, not much feelings left for dat person.n both of dem end up getting hurt. hmm mayb nt get hurt, but the feeling of regret is der.y is dat always the case?can u understand wat i've juz typed?
y issit hard to maintain a gd r/s? we cant c eye to eye, so?
Wednesday, October 13, 2004
submitted my report. im so hungry. hmm mayb super hungry. my tummy grumbling now.
dun really noe wat to blog but im super bored cos it's rwp lesson. i juz dislike wednesdays.
submission in 1 week times, including printing, storyboard, model... heh
i hate it when its nearing submission deadline, its grueling..
mayb i shld buy those coffee powder, nt 3 in 1 packets. lol
those strong ones.
im confused. abt alot of things. i nt sure hw to go abt it. i tink i gonna let things b d way it is. watever is or was said, i meant it somehow.
juz hope things gets better.
dun really noe wat to blog but im super bored cos it's rwp lesson. i juz dislike wednesdays.
submission in 1 week times, including printing, storyboard, model... heh
i hate it when its nearing submission deadline, its grueling..
mayb i shld buy those coffee powder, nt 3 in 1 packets. lol
those strong ones.
im confused. abt alot of things. i nt sure hw to go abt it. i tink i gonna let things b d way it is. watever is or was said, i meant it somehow.
juz hope things gets better.
Tuesday, October 12, 2004
i noe i shldnt b blogging but im waiting for my report to b printed out so yeah.
haven gt the time to update eh
a bad n a good day
bad bcos of something dat always happen. practically every day. getting sick of it. der is a limit to it u noe.
good day cos
i finished my report writing! tmr can submit peacefully.
ameera made my day, her laughter can do wonders.
she've been stealing kisses from me. she sat on my lap while i was doing my work. she kept on cupping my face n stole few kisses from me. she's forceful eh... lol she can kiss me but i cant kiss her. naughty girl. lol n yeah she loves the song This Love very much. i had to repeat the song alot of time. i tink i memorised the lyric of the song already. heh
anyway i've printed out my report, so yeah sayonara eh. got some work to finish eh.
been mssing trg but i cant help it lah. next week submission. facing some problems at the moment. hope can settle it asap. i've got 8 boards to print!! hmmm frigging expensive. bleh.
haven gt the time to update eh
a bad n a good day
bad bcos of something dat always happen. practically every day. getting sick of it. der is a limit to it u noe.
good day cos
i finished my report writing! tmr can submit peacefully.
ameera made my day, her laughter can do wonders.
she've been stealing kisses from me. she sat on my lap while i was doing my work. she kept on cupping my face n stole few kisses from me. she's forceful eh... lol she can kiss me but i cant kiss her. naughty girl. lol n yeah she loves the song This Love very much. i had to repeat the song alot of time. i tink i memorised the lyric of the song already. heh
anyway i've printed out my report, so yeah sayonara eh. got some work to finish eh.
been mssing trg but i cant help it lah. next week submission. facing some problems at the moment. hope can settle it asap. i've got 8 boards to print!! hmmm frigging expensive. bleh.
Sunday, October 10, 2004
juz got back from geylang serai. missed my chinese show, last episode eh but nvm family comes first.
went der to look at the lightings by the road. it was nice, tho nt as grand as before. it was a pretty sight. took pictures of it, shall upload it if i haf time ar. i also bought my kain! lime green, abit on d darker side. it's juz super plain. dun feel lyk wearing something glamour for this yr raya. wat's der to b happy abt.
walked down from joo chiat complex to haig road food centre. bring back old memories. my mum, my fam, my grams. saw some of my super "old" frens. miss my time at haig road, the walkways, the ppl, the playground. amazed dey still regconise me. i spent my entire childhood der!! lol i tink practically most of it at my dad's stall. studied der, eat der, played der n one of my 1st few crushes frm der too. hmmm, anyway they gonna close the bazaar thingy after this yr. abit sad cos wat's gonna happen to our culture??!! lol bleh. im going to this yr bazaar, by hook or by crook. im juz looking forward to c familiar faces. *grin*
i've decided nt to MENTION any sad stuffs or any thing dat's related with d feeling SADNESS. i shall nt share my feelings wif ppl rite? *rolls eyes*
went der to look at the lightings by the road. it was nice, tho nt as grand as before. it was a pretty sight. took pictures of it, shall upload it if i haf time ar. i also bought my kain! lime green, abit on d darker side. it's juz super plain. dun feel lyk wearing something glamour for this yr raya. wat's der to b happy abt.
walked down from joo chiat complex to haig road food centre. bring back old memories. my mum, my fam, my grams. saw some of my super "old" frens. miss my time at haig road, the walkways, the ppl, the playground. amazed dey still regconise me. i spent my entire childhood der!! lol i tink practically most of it at my dad's stall. studied der, eat der, played der n one of my 1st few crushes frm der too. hmmm, anyway they gonna close the bazaar thingy after this yr. abit sad cos wat's gonna happen to our culture??!! lol bleh. im going to this yr bazaar, by hook or by crook. im juz looking forward to c familiar faces. *grin*
i've decided nt to MENTION any sad stuffs or any thing dat's related with d feeling SADNESS. i shall nt share my feelings wif ppl rite? *rolls eyes*
Saturday, October 09, 2004
hmm been trying to blog but bcos of my stupid net i cant seem to update anything
hmmmmy aunt n unc juz gt back. so unexpected. lol tot dey gonna b away for long.
im disappointed n also relieved. lol cos den i dun haf to cook.
n my sis nt coming home today, told me she gonna explore some haunted skool. abit stupid to find trouble. lol i told her nt to come home cos hu noes something may juz follow her home. n she din bring her hp! she noes hw to make me ppl worry only.
m still thinking bt wat someone said. made me feel alittle bit low, proved more hw little someone can mean to another person. but den again i dun haf time to tink abt this little mundane stuffs. so i shall forget bt it eh. lol. yeah n dat someone is totally happy. must b jumping wif joy. lol :P
hmmmmy aunt n unc juz gt back. so unexpected. lol tot dey gonna b away for long.
im disappointed n also relieved. lol cos den i dun haf to cook.
n my sis nt coming home today, told me she gonna explore some haunted skool. abit stupid to find trouble. lol i told her nt to come home cos hu noes something may juz follow her home. n she din bring her hp! she noes hw to make me ppl worry only.
m still thinking bt wat someone said. made me feel alittle bit low, proved more hw little someone can mean to another person. but den again i dun haf time to tink abt this little mundane stuffs. so i shall forget bt it eh. lol. yeah n dat someone is totally happy. must b jumping wif joy. lol :P
Thursday, October 07, 2004
morn n im here alone. so much of helping. bleh
probably i was too mean, im sorry. seems to bring in alot of after effects.
im not sure of myself either. sorry. i juz wanna get out of this loophole.
i dun 1 2 quarrel endlessly nimore. juz hope things get better.
dun read too much into this entry. im juz typing wat im feeling.
n oh by the way, i juz read that Exorcist: The Beginning is cursed. here is the link, can read it for urself. http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/5762349/
hope the link works eh.
probably i was too mean, im sorry. seems to bring in alot of after effects.
im not sure of myself either. sorry. i juz wanna get out of this loophole.
i dun 1 2 quarrel endlessly nimore. juz hope things get better.
dun read too much into this entry. im juz typing wat im feeling.
n oh by the way, i juz read that Exorcist: The Beginning is cursed. here is the link, can read it for urself. http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/5762349/
hope the link works eh.
Wednesday, October 06, 2004
here i am, in my language class. bored to death. okay im trying to type here discreetly so dat my lect wont say anything n she is totally beside me attending to some top student. Bleh. Im feeling pissed n down. n juz seconds ago, my lecturer was looking at my work. Lol she almost caught this paragraph here but I tried to divert her attention to my other work n it worked. heh
n yest's trg was good. really. wonder y. must b the absence of nazhan. lol i tink the juniors really improved alot.but im super tired now. was suppose to do my report writing yest nite but erh thanks to someone, i cldnt do it. idiotic. hw am i gonna complete it. so here i am doing my report writing. without the doc.
i've decided to tell nazhan that i wont b coming 4 two weeks. i need the time. i need to push myself further. its already the 3rd week and im still at single line. wth. im really slacking.
n yest's trg was good. really. wonder y. must b the absence of nazhan. lol i tink the juniors really improved alot.but im super tired now. was suppose to do my report writing yest nite but erh thanks to someone, i cldnt do it. idiotic. hw am i gonna complete it. so here i am doing my report writing. without the doc.
i've decided to tell nazhan that i wont b coming 4 two weeks. i need the time. i need to push myself further. its already the 3rd week and im still at single line. wth. im really slacking.
Monday, October 04, 2004
its 4 oct 2004 today. 40 days ago was d day dat made me stronger. 4 x 10 = 40! coincidence i guess. reading too much into it.
anyway its shereen's bday today. happy birthday darling. bought her something dat we hope will make her forget bt the past n move on wif ease. hope she lyks it.*grin*
haha today i woke up extra early, juz to meet someone at 8 am but *shakes head* dey made me wait for more den half an hr! lol bleh. well anything 4 d bday girl heh.
was hoping dat she'll probably forgo the idea of spending her bday wif some unknown guy but he seems determined. watever makes her happy lah. lol
anyway its shereen's bday today. happy birthday darling. bought her something dat we hope will make her forget bt the past n move on wif ease. hope she lyks it.*grin*
haha today i woke up extra early, juz to meet someone at 8 am but *shakes head* dey made me wait for more den half an hr! lol bleh. well anything 4 d bday girl heh.
was hoping dat she'll probably forgo the idea of spending her bday wif some unknown guy but he seems determined. watever makes her happy lah. lol
Sunday, October 03, 2004
"how long is forever?" ponder ponder ponder
i wonder wat's my future like.
n i feel lethargic. my arms r aching. stupid claps.
i wonder wat's my future like.
n i feel lethargic. my arms r aching. stupid claps.
juz woke up. been waking up early. had a stupid drm again lol. this time is abt skool. saw e sinister smile lect. lol was suppose to do project n i was toking to unknown ppl. den saw dat lect. the unknown ppl were guessing wat socks she's wearing. lol n it looked pretty weird to. she was wearing heels on another heels wif socks to hide it . din really noe hw she balanced it. when i asked her wat she's wearing, she said dun ask. lol wth. stupid eh. must b shereen lah. nvrtheless i had a gd slp.
hmmm, was reading candy's blog. somehw it's kind of true dat last bit. a strong person at heart is actually a real weakling. everything dat was put up was juz a mask. to cover all the insecureness n uncertainties. i dun tink im even strong at heart, mayb not in the past. every pain dat i felt, i cried it out. nt now i guess, nt anymore.
issit me or is der something really wrg wif d person? am i juz running away cos im getting tired of it or issit really beyond hope? i've been wondering, y am i attracted to chinese guys n nt malays considering dat d r/s probably wont work out. something bt malay guys juz put me off. mayb bcos i've been living in a hse wif too many man arnd. i gt 9 uncs u noe. i probably noe hw guys r lyk n dun 1 2 end up wif a similar characteristic. nt dat i loathe dem but juz dat malays has a diff attitude towards life. haha im nt being racist here but juz penning my tots. look at my classmates, the malay guys. *rolls eyes* but den again der r those exceptional ones. mayb its juz my bad experience, once bitten twice shy. heh watever it is i cant c myself wif a malay guy. n im nt saying dat chinese guys r superb or watever, juz dat dey grab my attention easily. lol unless i gt a commitment phobia, cos watever i choose to do, its always something dat is beyond my grasp, cos den i dun haf to bother completing it. hmm seems ironic ar, considering dat im in my 2nd yr. mayb dat's when all the troubles begin...
n its 9 am nw, i shall wait till 10 am n watch cartoons. in the meanwhile shall do my work. lol
hmmm, was reading candy's blog. somehw it's kind of true dat last bit. a strong person at heart is actually a real weakling. everything dat was put up was juz a mask. to cover all the insecureness n uncertainties. i dun tink im even strong at heart, mayb not in the past. every pain dat i felt, i cried it out. nt now i guess, nt anymore.
issit me or is der something really wrg wif d person? am i juz running away cos im getting tired of it or issit really beyond hope? i've been wondering, y am i attracted to chinese guys n nt malays considering dat d r/s probably wont work out. something bt malay guys juz put me off. mayb bcos i've been living in a hse wif too many man arnd. i gt 9 uncs u noe. i probably noe hw guys r lyk n dun 1 2 end up wif a similar characteristic. nt dat i loathe dem but juz dat malays has a diff attitude towards life. haha im nt being racist here but juz penning my tots. look at my classmates, the malay guys. *rolls eyes* but den again der r those exceptional ones. mayb its juz my bad experience, once bitten twice shy. heh watever it is i cant c myself wif a malay guy. n im nt saying dat chinese guys r superb or watever, juz dat dey grab my attention easily. lol unless i gt a commitment phobia, cos watever i choose to do, its always something dat is beyond my grasp, cos den i dun haf to bother completing it. hmm seems ironic ar, considering dat im in my 2nd yr. mayb dat's when all the troubles begin...
n its 9 am nw, i shall wait till 10 am n watch cartoons. in the meanwhile shall do my work. lol
Saturday, October 02, 2004
hmmm, went tamp. bought shereen her thingy. cant wait to c dat girl on mon. miss her tons. heh i lyk to call her my drama queen, really cos she perks up my day . shereen, if ur reading this, juz wanna say u rawk. adore ur personalities n ur crappiness. lol n i was juz tinking, bt dat treat on ur bday, lol y nt treat me, fiza n aish cos we truly loves u, haha dun waste ur money on mamat or ayun or any other guy... haha *wink*
n i feel lyk im tortured mentally n emotionally. somehw, i cant seem to haf a peace of mind. its lyk every nerves of mine is pounding against my skin, threathening to explode. i cant rest, cant haf a moment to myself. restless soul, dat's wat i am. i cant concentrate on my work. i duno wat makes me feel all this. issit bcos im really scared dat my submission is nearing, cos im left wif 23 days, n yeah 23 days to ur upcoming exams or am i juz worried bt certain things. i cant even haf a proper slp! god, wonder wassup wif me. probably i tink too much. i really want to complete my work, hope i can juz stop thinking n start concentrating.
n i feel lyk im tortured mentally n emotionally. somehw, i cant seem to haf a peace of mind. its lyk every nerves of mine is pounding against my skin, threathening to explode. i cant rest, cant haf a moment to myself. restless soul, dat's wat i am. i cant concentrate on my work. i duno wat makes me feel all this. issit bcos im really scared dat my submission is nearing, cos im left wif 23 days, n yeah 23 days to ur upcoming exams or am i juz worried bt certain things. i cant even haf a proper slp! god, wonder wassup wif me. probably i tink too much. i really want to complete my work, hope i can juz stop thinking n start concentrating.
Friday, October 01, 2004
hmm i juz realised i gonna spend my weekend alone. it's gonna b one boring, laggy weekend
my sis is in KL right now, enjoying herself. n ameera amirul will b going to johor tmr to visit their grandparents. so left wif me n my bro. n my bro fav hobby is to slp. the more the better.
heh dunno lah. im juz tired of looking at d screen frm afternon till now. lol *rolls eyes*
anyway shereen bday on mon. dun really noe wat to go get for her. i tink i wanna rest for a while. lol im juz plain lazy lah. finding excuses nt to do work. argh. nvm. lol
i gonna slp alone tonite!! the day after too. haha i love having the extra free space to roll arnd. but if der is anything at nite, i cant disturb anyone. bleh. sucks.
tot of going to skool n do work wif ches but i guess he cldnt make it cos he din msg me anything..
yest wasnt a good day for me. stress coming frm everywhere. hmm im nt a person hu gets stressed easily. n i dun lose things easily. heh but i juz lost my admin card yest. haha to think bt it,i pretty much lost alot of stuffs recently. anyway i dun tink i wanna get a new card, probably juz use my fren's card 2 borrow books eh.
oh yah, yest was pretty stupid, the moment i entered class, weiyin was asking me whether im wearing slippers. n i said ya. den she told me abt the rafia strings to use it n tie it arnd my leg as a strap. wth. lol lucky gt trg. stupid. totally spot check eh yest. didn even c any director. erm n fiza, i've gt bad news to tell u. lol ;P tell u on mon lah. sorry ar babe.
n i saw the lecturer again. lol dun wanna mention his name cos i was juz tinking of eleta's incident. bt dat gay guy. lol so i dun wanna get into some complicated matters, nt dat any guy wld ask 4 my number or wat. lol but yeah i really tink he's a gd lecturer, juz lyk my class tutor.
i dun tink i take orders very well. i wld probably rebel against it if someone juz try to force it dwn on me. my aunt n my unc had a taste of it, chester, my sis too n some unknown ppl. well unless i tink it benefits me in some way. im sorry ar if i did disobey or juz ignore ur comments in some way. heh alrite back to work. lol i think i spent abt half an hr on this thing. heh
my sis is in KL right now, enjoying herself. n ameera amirul will b going to johor tmr to visit their grandparents. so left wif me n my bro. n my bro fav hobby is to slp. the more the better.
heh dunno lah. im juz tired of looking at d screen frm afternon till now. lol *rolls eyes*
anyway shereen bday on mon. dun really noe wat to go get for her. i tink i wanna rest for a while. lol im juz plain lazy lah. finding excuses nt to do work. argh. nvm. lol
i gonna slp alone tonite!! the day after too. haha i love having the extra free space to roll arnd. but if der is anything at nite, i cant disturb anyone. bleh. sucks.
work.work.work...
haha okay im juz taking a short break from my work. c im doing my work. i've set myself a target for this weekend. gt to complete certain stuffs so dat can show it to d lecturer. i hope im able to. i really really haf to complete dem by sun. time is running out.tot of going to skool n do work wif ches but i guess he cldnt make it cos he din msg me anything..
yest wasnt a good day for me. stress coming frm everywhere. hmm im nt a person hu gets stressed easily. n i dun lose things easily. heh but i juz lost my admin card yest. haha to think bt it,i pretty much lost alot of stuffs recently. anyway i dun tink i wanna get a new card, probably juz use my fren's card 2 borrow books eh.
oh yah, yest was pretty stupid, the moment i entered class, weiyin was asking me whether im wearing slippers. n i said ya. den she told me abt the rafia strings to use it n tie it arnd my leg as a strap. wth. lol lucky gt trg. stupid. totally spot check eh yest. didn even c any director. erm n fiza, i've gt bad news to tell u. lol ;P tell u on mon lah. sorry ar babe.
n i saw the lecturer again. lol dun wanna mention his name cos i was juz tinking of eleta's incident. bt dat gay guy. lol so i dun wanna get into some complicated matters, nt dat any guy wld ask 4 my number or wat. lol but yeah i really tink he's a gd lecturer, juz lyk my class tutor.
i dun tink i take orders very well. i wld probably rebel against it if someone juz try to force it dwn on me. my aunt n my unc had a taste of it, chester, my sis too n some unknown ppl. well unless i tink it benefits me in some way. im sorry ar if i did disobey or juz ignore ur comments in some way. heh alrite back to work. lol i think i spent abt half an hr on this thing. heh