i've totally no recollection wat happened the past few days. my mind been totally concentrated on my work. lol yeah rite. n had a grt day yest. lol cant say much lah.
i think i've got kenduri arwah on sat. 40 days huh. yeah miss her. dun mind me if der r tears rolling dwn my cheeks k. i was juz thinking of her n i'll b fine. lol
Monday, September 27, 2004
juz gt back frm trg. saw a lect frm yr 1 on my home again. haha he's a nice lecturer, very comfortable to talk to. if i've gt any problems regarding e future, i'll probably seek advices frm him. i look up to him. lol
went to skool today, was suppose to treat someone but dat person went out wif her darl so mayb tmr den. she got a ring, wif purple stones! hmmmrp im jealous. haha wth. its okay i dun need rings. i'll probably lose it somewhere. i dun even noe where my pink ring went. darn. nvm. n shereen is so into her "new" guy. she claimed he's super hot, real gd looking, into poetry n is darn mushy. i've yet to c him in real life. lol we'll c. let's c where my heart brings me to. *ponder* heh~
trg was okay today i guess. haha i dun wanna make any comments. but yeah i enjoyed the trg today.bah. tmr starts at 8am. n lecture in d morning. haha cant b late. well i better do some work. okiez.
went to skool today, was suppose to treat someone but dat person went out wif her darl so mayb tmr den. she got a ring, wif purple stones! hmmmrp im jealous. haha wth. its okay i dun need rings. i'll probably lose it somewhere. i dun even noe where my pink ring went. darn. nvm. n shereen is so into her "new" guy. she claimed he's super hot, real gd looking, into poetry n is darn mushy. i've yet to c him in real life. lol we'll c. let's c where my heart brings me to. *ponder* heh~
trg was okay today i guess. haha i dun wanna make any comments. but yeah i enjoyed the trg today.bah. tmr starts at 8am. n lecture in d morning. haha cant b late. well i better do some work. okiez.
haha juz wanna say happy 19th birthday my dear aishah!
Sunday, September 26, 2004
argh i feel so slack! der chester is, working so hard on his work n here i am slacking,snacking n watching tv. i feel so frustrated cos i cant bring myself to do work. i hate doing comp work.
shit lah im feeling bleh. i've wasted one freaking week. someone slap me pls.
n i missed my cartoons. heh. but nvm the time spent at punggol plaza was worth it.
argh i dunno wat i gona do tmr. i dislike doing work in skool. cos der will b ppl looking at ur work, watching, distractions n noises.
bah everything went fine i guess. i got to b more disciplined. bleh.
shit lah im feeling bleh. i've wasted one freaking week. someone slap me pls.
n i missed my cartoons. heh. but nvm the time spent at punggol plaza was worth it.
argh i dunno wat i gona do tmr. i dislike doing work in skool. cos der will b ppl looking at ur work, watching, distractions n noises.
bah everything went fine i guess. i got to b more disciplined. bleh.
Saturday, September 25, 2004
i hope i can type all out n publish this entry before the net goes dwn again or if nt i've got to wait till der is net.
niway yest nite wasnt good 4 me. shitty things happened. wasn feeling dat good. im sorry candy if i made u feel stupid. i wanted 2 b alone.
dear, im sorry.
i miss my mum i guess. yest was one mth, juz cldnt belif it. things been really shitty ever since she's gone. prolly im juz a burden ever since dat day. i was feeling rather emo yest nite. words cant describe wat i felt. i heard sniffles while i was slping. i guess it was my sis. when we do break dwn, i guess it juz gt to b discreet. we both miss her alot i figure.
im feeling real low. y cant things go smoothly. i haf no reactions to wat is going on now. i duno wat to do. all i can say is sorry. cos watever i say, it may turn out bad. i guess it's best i keep quiet n accept watever u gt 2 offer. juz dun leave me hanging.
feel lyk shutting myself dwn n go to slp n nvr wake up. but dat's crappy cos i've gt tons of things to do. i just gt to b bear wif it.
niway yest nite wasnt good 4 me. shitty things happened. wasn feeling dat good. im sorry candy if i made u feel stupid. i wanted 2 b alone.
dear, im sorry.
i miss my mum i guess. yest was one mth, juz cldnt belif it. things been really shitty ever since she's gone. prolly im juz a burden ever since dat day. i was feeling rather emo yest nite. words cant describe wat i felt. i heard sniffles while i was slping. i guess it was my sis. when we do break dwn, i guess it juz gt to b discreet. we both miss her alot i figure.
im feeling real low. y cant things go smoothly. i haf no reactions to wat is going on now. i duno wat to do. all i can say is sorry. cos watever i say, it may turn out bad. i guess it's best i keep quiet n accept watever u gt 2 offer. juz dun leave me hanging.
feel lyk shutting myself dwn n go to slp n nvr wake up. but dat's crappy cos i've gt tons of things to do. i just gt to b bear wif it.
Friday, September 24, 2004
been lazy to blog lately. went out wif ches yest. watched dodgeball. it's so hilarious. ben stiller is damn short but he's good. his wife is so pretty.
had briefing yest 4 jt crit 3. i've gt alot of things to do. n i tink i've been slacking too much.
i hope everything goes well next mth. n i tink i've put on weight thanks to my kakis. been making me too happy dat i eat too much. thanks ar ppl.
n today is the 24th. one mth.
n juz a tot, if u haf faith in urself, nth elz matters.
had briefing yest 4 jt crit 3. i've gt alot of things to do. n i tink i've been slacking too much.
i hope everything goes well next mth. n i tink i've put on weight thanks to my kakis. been making me too happy dat i eat too much. thanks ar ppl.
n today is the 24th. one mth.
n juz a tot, if u haf faith in urself, nth elz matters.
Thursday, September 23, 2004
heh. erh i dun tink i'll b blogging much starting frm today. i gt too many things on my mind n alot of things to do. haha okay lah nth to say. ermm yest was fun. n i gt my jacket back so yay!!
Tuesday, September 21, 2004
not a particularly a gd day for me. cos i din get to play. well i din 1 2 cos i wasn feeling well n my ankle is till abit swollen. i dun wan to fall sick. so i guess its best dat i stay indoor. i hate rainy days. my nose always gif me prob.lol
today's tutorial was so boring. no mood to do work. so went to lib n had fun. went 2 do some research n was distracted.lol my drama queen was so kecoh. i made a mistake of sitting beside her n letting her listen 2 my discman. n wat made it worst was dat most of the songs are her fav songs. so she went on n on n on singing in the lib. haha apparently my hp seemed useful to her. lol she even recorded video clips of herself singing wif her movements. it really cracked us up. haha it was only me, fiza, chester n of cos shereen. i still gt d video clips in my fone. lol if only i gt bluetooth on my comp, den i can send d clips to AFV. lol well der, my personal drama queen, full of non-stop dramatic actions.
n i gt my results back. im surprised. it was pretty fast eh. hmm okay i guess i did better den i expected myself to. i cant help wondering whether was it bcos of my mum's death dat the lecturers pitied me. im juz being paranoid.anyway it gaf me some motivation. i wanna do work nw... lol alrite den.
today's tutorial was so boring. no mood to do work. so went to lib n had fun. went 2 do some research n was distracted.lol my drama queen was so kecoh. i made a mistake of sitting beside her n letting her listen 2 my discman. n wat made it worst was dat most of the songs are her fav songs. so she went on n on n on singing in the lib. haha apparently my hp seemed useful to her. lol she even recorded video clips of herself singing wif her movements. it really cracked us up. haha it was only me, fiza, chester n of cos shereen. i still gt d video clips in my fone. lol if only i gt bluetooth on my comp, den i can send d clips to AFV. lol well der, my personal drama queen, full of non-stop dramatic actions.
n i gt my results back. im surprised. it was pretty fast eh. hmm okay i guess i did better den i expected myself to. i cant help wondering whether was it bcos of my mum's death dat the lecturers pitied me. im juz being paranoid.anyway it gaf me some motivation. i wanna do work nw... lol alrite den.
heh, i was feeling real lazy today. n my ankle is still swollen so i doubt i'll b coming 4 trg. mayb juz b der. hmm tmr gt test n i still haven really study it. haha i doubt i noe anything bt it.
i dun really noe wat to blog. din bring any materials or stationery to do my work so i guess i'll probably be surfing d net for codes. heh lyk i will do. n here i am wif chester by my side, shaking his head when he sees me blogging. alrite i gt to stop blogging for now.
i dun really noe wat to blog. din bring any materials or stationery to do my work so i guess i'll probably be surfing d net for codes. heh lyk i will do. n here i am wif chester by my side, shaking his head when he sees me blogging. alrite i gt to stop blogging for now.
Monday, September 20, 2004
erm, skool was at 8 today. had lecture in d morn n den graduate's talk followed by feedbacks on our jt crit 2. heh the graduate's talk was fun. gaf me alot of insipration n motivation. i really wana do something meaningful in my life. initially, when i left the theatre, i wanted to get in a Uni, by hook or by crook. but i gt to b realistic, gt to get my feet back on earth. i looked thru my yr 1 work, heh i wonder wat happened frm yr1 till nw. im so different,rite nw i try to b safe wif my work, i dun explore other possiblities. i gt to change my mindset.
i gonna plan out wat i gonna do when i graduate, consult e lecturers. i feel so insecure.
been buggin my inner self. der is so much things to do yet so little time.
anyway on my way hm, i waited 4 vic. din wanna go hm early. juz dun feel homey. so went to tamp wif vic. haha actually supposed to go town but i guess some ppl are juz malas *grin*
yeah so walked arnd tamp, n had a grt time wif vic. haha so i gt home early n tried to do my work but i tink i need my butterpaper work. i cant change on d comp. nt easy. i need my mind to b at ease. well, i gt to start do something nw. heh bah i hate stress.
i gonna plan out wat i gonna do when i graduate, consult e lecturers. i feel so insecure.
been buggin my inner self. der is so much things to do yet so little time.
anyway on my way hm, i waited 4 vic. din wanna go hm early. juz dun feel homey. so went to tamp wif vic. haha actually supposed to go town but i guess some ppl are juz malas *grin*
yeah so walked arnd tamp, n had a grt time wif vic. haha so i gt home early n tried to do my work but i tink i need my butterpaper work. i cant change on d comp. nt easy. i need my mind to b at ease. well, i gt to start do something nw. heh bah i hate stress.
Sunday, September 19, 2004
had a good today. definitely, i hope the juniors too had a gd day.
i saw fireworks!! *grin* lol at tamp mrt stn. it was really beautiful. i was alone, candy n fei was on deir way hm. but yeah i had a gd view cos it was right in front my eyes. lol the firework wasn dat high niway. it was nice. juz gt back frm kfc, ate wif dem. haha had fun toking 2 dem. erm im considering to work part time. well, c wat candy gt 2 say eh.
i really really admire sherlyn's style. nth wrg wif admiring someone rite? i dun wan say more. lol
i noe i did alot of stupid stuffs juz bcos someone i lyked was arnd me. real stupid stuffs, till nw i cant belif dat i did all dat. i guess it's juz human nature. erh i tink dis is so nt linked to sherlyn's style. haha well niway had a grt time watching she n the rest play. congrats ar babes.
i think my ankle is swollen, hmmm looks bigger eh. hmmm mayb i wont come to skool tmr if it gets workst. n my nose sux, been sneezing n am still sneezing. heh.
m worried bt my sis, wonder wat she is up to.
n been thinkng bt today alot, tho i'll probably forget bt it d next day till i c her again.
n i lyk this song, by twista-hopeful.
i think it sounds rather christian but its e lyrics dat's meaningful eh. juz b hopeful.
i saw fireworks!! *grin* lol at tamp mrt stn. it was really beautiful. i was alone, candy n fei was on deir way hm. but yeah i had a gd view cos it was right in front my eyes. lol the firework wasn dat high niway. it was nice. juz gt back frm kfc, ate wif dem. haha had fun toking 2 dem. erm im considering to work part time. well, c wat candy gt 2 say eh.
i really really admire sherlyn's style. nth wrg wif admiring someone rite? i dun wan say more. lol
i noe i did alot of stupid stuffs juz bcos someone i lyked was arnd me. real stupid stuffs, till nw i cant belif dat i did all dat. i guess it's juz human nature. erh i tink dis is so nt linked to sherlyn's style. haha well niway had a grt time watching she n the rest play. congrats ar babes.
i think my ankle is swollen, hmmm looks bigger eh. hmmm mayb i wont come to skool tmr if it gets workst. n my nose sux, been sneezing n am still sneezing. heh.
m worried bt my sis, wonder wat she is up to.
n been thinkng bt today alot, tho i'll probably forget bt it d next day till i c her again.
n i lyk this song, by twista-hopeful.
i think it sounds rather christian but its e lyrics dat's meaningful eh. juz b hopeful.
Saturday, September 18, 2004
haha i got a new layout! but i still lyk my old skin. well c first lah, mayb i'll change it back.
today was totally dedicated to chester. haha had a grt day. love it when we dun quarrel.i tink his pocket today gt burned. lol cos im lyk soooo broke n he's willing to pay lunch n dinner 4 me. haha hw sweet can he get. *rolls eyes* lol alrite. n i gt new stuffs thanks to him! thanks chester 4 d day.
saw farah today wif her mum n her sis, haha miss her. her mum's looking gd.
haha y do every one juz look better n better. lol
tmr gt game. games always gif me butterflies in d stomach. lol alrite den
i gt nth much to say, juz feeling lazy to update. lol
today was totally dedicated to chester. haha had a grt day. love it when we dun quarrel.i tink his pocket today gt burned. lol cos im lyk soooo broke n he's willing to pay lunch n dinner 4 me. haha hw sweet can he get. *rolls eyes* lol alrite. n i gt new stuffs thanks to him! thanks chester 4 d day.
saw farah today wif her mum n her sis, haha miss her. her mum's looking gd.
haha y do every one juz look better n better. lol
tmr gt game. games always gif me butterflies in d stomach. lol alrite den
i gt nth much to say, juz feeling lazy to update. lol
Friday, September 17, 2004
haha erh. i dunno hw to describe today. went meiji n den to jurong pt n skool.
i tink i kind of enjoy my day today, dun feel lyk sharing it out.
n i miss alot of ppl. i shld make a habit dat if i happen to b thinking bt someone, i shld juz send an sms n tell dem i miss dem. argh i gt lot of ppl dat i wanna contact n go out wif. i shld.
i tink i kind of enjoy my day today, dun feel lyk sharing it out.
n i miss alot of ppl. i shld make a habit dat if i happen to b thinking bt someone, i shld juz send an sms n tell dem i miss dem. argh i gt lot of ppl dat i wanna contact n go out wif. i shld.
Thursday, September 16, 2004
went out wif ches after his presentation. din go quite well i guess but im proud of him! cos he took it well. went to this crazy sale but din find anything worth buying. tot i cld find dat eagle top :(, shld haf bought it when i first saw it, bah no use regretting. its juz a tshirt.
im feeling rather tired. dunno y. really, after all this days, i still cant accept wat had happen. i still cant belif she's gone. every little things always reminds me of her.....
hmm, im feeling rather dwn n pissed 4 my dear shereen. nt dat i pity u girl, im proud ur out of dat pithole.for nw, u juz gt to watch ur steps n nt fall into it again. he's a bitchy boy n dun deserve u eh. some guys r juz plain jerks. nt worth crying over dem. anyway i'll b here. consider mamat pls, lol u can go clubbing n atone ur sins at masjid after dat.*winks* k im juz being mean. lol, erm its juz a joke k peeps.
n thanks chester, 4 sending me home. i noe ur tired n quite pissed bt ur presentation but u still sent me home. appreciate it.
im feeling rather tired. dunno y. really, after all this days, i still cant accept wat had happen. i still cant belif she's gone. every little things always reminds me of her.....
hmm, im feeling rather dwn n pissed 4 my dear shereen. nt dat i pity u girl, im proud ur out of dat pithole.for nw, u juz gt to watch ur steps n nt fall into it again. he's a bitchy boy n dun deserve u eh. some guys r juz plain jerks. nt worth crying over dem. anyway i'll b here. consider mamat pls, lol u can go clubbing n atone ur sins at masjid after dat.*winks* k im juz being mean. lol, erm its juz a joke k peeps.
n thanks chester, 4 sending me home. i noe ur tired n quite pissed bt ur presentation but u still sent me home. appreciate it.
heh. in skool. wanted to update at home but stupid net!! so yeah i probably will change my layout lrt?
let me juz update past 2 days.
wed, i went out wif d babes n ches. haha went far east plaza n den went window shopping. grt fun. n i dun lyk going to poshy shopping centres lyk The Galleria. someone pissed me off at dat time. dun wan 2 mention names. lol *grin* n i soooo want to get the new Mango tshirts. hmmrp!
tues, went to watch shereen present but totally wasn der bcos of someone again.*rolls eyes* but anyway i was der to watch the part of the presentation. i guess her crit went well. after dat followed her to cut her hair. saw sab n adam at dover. lol sab totally 'menonong'(eh correct spelling?). but nvm. haha but anyhoo, shereen looked super jappy at dat moment. well at least i dun call ppl poser lyk someone did. haha but i tink she looked pretty much lyk herself yest.
well dat's all rite nw. chester's presentation soon.
let me juz update past 2 days.
wed, i went out wif d babes n ches. haha went far east plaza n den went window shopping. grt fun. n i dun lyk going to poshy shopping centres lyk The Galleria. someone pissed me off at dat time. dun wan 2 mention names. lol *grin* n i soooo want to get the new Mango tshirts. hmmrp!
tues, went to watch shereen present but totally wasn der bcos of someone again.*rolls eyes* but anyway i was der to watch the part of the presentation. i guess her crit went well. after dat followed her to cut her hair. saw sab n adam at dover. lol sab totally 'menonong'(eh correct spelling?). but nvm. haha but anyhoo, shereen looked super jappy at dat moment. well at least i dun call ppl poser lyk someone did. haha but i tink she looked pretty much lyk herself yest.
well dat's all rite nw. chester's presentation soon.
Wednesday, September 15, 2004
erh, waiting 4 aish's crit nw. am terribly hungry n der is this guy called m.a.l.i.k prancing arnd wif my bag. he cant take off his hands off my bag. wonder y.
anyway i woke up late.lyk 6.55 am n im suppose to b in skool at 8. lol but better late den nvr rite. i managed to reach skool at arnd 8.20. niway me n morning dun click. so yeah in d train i was leaning against the glass thingy n der was this girl. she kept staring at me. kinda pissed me off. so wat i did was juz stared back at her. lol i think she was taken aback. after staring back at her 4 awhile, she turned her head away. lol so i won! heh. juz stupid. ppl shld juz stay away frm me in d morning. well unless of cos if its a special someone. lol
n completed fiza's blog. i want to change my layout too but my stupid net at home is down. must b the weather. heh. nvm aish's turn soon!!!! wish her luck *wink*
anyway i woke up late.lyk 6.55 am n im suppose to b in skool at 8. lol but better late den nvr rite. i managed to reach skool at arnd 8.20. niway me n morning dun click. so yeah in d train i was leaning against the glass thingy n der was this girl. she kept staring at me. kinda pissed me off. so wat i did was juz stared back at her. lol i think she was taken aback. after staring back at her 4 awhile, she turned her head away. lol so i won! heh. juz stupid. ppl shld juz stay away frm me in d morning. well unless of cos if its a special someone. lol
n completed fiza's blog. i want to change my layout too but my stupid net at home is down. must b the weather. heh. nvm aish's turn soon!!!! wish her luck *wink*
Monday, September 13, 2004
juz gt back. went arnd tamp wif ches but he had to go off at last min cos he totally forgot bt something impt. so yah.
anyway my presentation went okay. dun wanna put too much hopes on it. got little things to resolve but overall it went pretty okay. lol thank god the lecturers are nice. im juz lucky i think.
and today went grt. saw ches n the babes! haha miss dem tons. shereen n fiza, bah miss dem really alot,it was lyk 1wk ago i last saw dem. aish totally disappeared! anyway helped shereen wif her blog.d drama mama girl.lots of laughter today except when it was nearing our turn to present. lol i was sooo nervous. all those things dat i've prepared yest was totally useless cos i din haf d time to look at the notes.
n yeah saw candy n vic too, thanks ar for e plasters. lol so nice of u candy.
anyway, hungry!! ciaoz.
anyway fiza darling, dun tink too much.u weren dat bad at all, juz dat u were plain unlucky. the lecturers were probably feeling rather grouchy cos u were e last person or probably it was juz our presence.if so, sorry ya babe. anyway its only 5%, dun tink it was a failure okay girl, juz an obstacle dat u overcame to make ur work even better. ask me anything if u need help. ; )
anyway my presentation went okay. dun wanna put too much hopes on it. got little things to resolve but overall it went pretty okay. lol thank god the lecturers are nice. im juz lucky i think.
and today went grt. saw ches n the babes! haha miss dem tons. shereen n fiza, bah miss dem really alot,it was lyk 1wk ago i last saw dem. aish totally disappeared! anyway helped shereen wif her blog.d drama mama girl.lots of laughter today except when it was nearing our turn to present. lol i was sooo nervous. all those things dat i've prepared yest was totally useless cos i din haf d time to look at the notes.
n yeah saw candy n vic too, thanks ar for e plasters. lol so nice of u candy.
anyway, hungry!! ciaoz.
anyway fiza darling, dun tink too much.u weren dat bad at all, juz dat u were plain unlucky. the lecturers were probably feeling rather grouchy cos u were e last person or probably it was juz our presence.if so, sorry ya babe. anyway its only 5%, dun tink it was a failure okay girl, juz an obstacle dat u overcame to make ur work even better. ask me anything if u need help. ; )
Sunday, September 12, 2004
heh 3rd entry 4 d day. im bored. really bored. anyway the 7pm chinese show juz made my day. im swooning wif happiness. lol it happens. n i really really love this song. ever since yr 1. full of sentimental stuffs dat comes wif it. i mean of yr one, nt of someone. but i do haf lotsa songs dat r connected to ppl. canon d,dancing in d moonlight to eleta, cant take my eyes off u by laurynn hill to Lilien(yes u my dear lilien, remember those days where eleta, farah, me n shuh li sang it 4 ya, does it still irritates u as much?, lol miss u girl) baby its you to chester, westlife to nadiah, this i promise u to wei kiat(nt bcos i still lyk him, juz tot hw stupid he was to sing dat song) and yeah lots more...
gt to rest. tmr's D presentation day. lol wish me luck if u juz happen to read this b4 4pm on 13 sept. okay den.
gt to rest. tmr's D presentation day. lol wish me luck if u juz happen to read this b4 4pm on 13 sept. okay den.
life is full of pretence. period.
n i hope the lecturers tmr are the nice one, lyk mr cheah, or the manly lecturer, mmm mayb nt he seems scary. juz hope everything goes smoothly.
n i hope the lecturers tmr are the nice one, lyk mr cheah, or the manly lecturer, mmm mayb nt he seems scary. juz hope everything goes smoothly.
juz feel lyk blogging. did some of my presentation thingy. i've realised i've gt alot to talk abt. alot to mention. heh ltr den i do. i juz wanna enjoy my sunday morning!!! i love sunday morning. got all the wonderful cartoons. jackie chan, totally spies, teen titans n jimmy neutron!!! okok der r alot more lah. ciaoz. rite now i juz gt to find a way to shoo my dad away frm tv. *evil grin*
Saturday, September 11, 2004
hmmm had a nice talk wif my sis. if only everyday can b lyk this. juz reminiscing bt our younger days. nt dat we r very old. juz dat d times when my grandma n grandad n my mum was still alive.
i think my grandma brought me up well. nt dat im trying to say im an extremely good girl nw, juz dat watever i am now is bcos of her. she had this huge impact on my life. she taught me well, mayb it wasnt obvious but i learnt useful things bt life frm her. i've always looked up to her. her patience, her love for me, strong n silent yet soft, hw she raised 11 kids by herself. remembered i used to sit by her side n played wif her hair. talked 2 her till she fell aslp.hw everytime i wanna tie my hair, she wld do it 4 me. hw every morn b4 i went to skool she wld kissed me, my forehead n my cheeks. n den hugged me. i din really received dis kind of attention frm my mum but i nvr tot der was something missing in my life. my life den was pretty much filled wif love. only after she left i became D problematic child. lol yeah i was. i think me n my sis went thru shitty times together. well, when my mum was still arnd, at least i had someone to belif in, someone to stand up 4, someone 2 b der for. but i think, things changed. my sis n me belong to nowhere. nt dat im sad. im pretty much used to the way it is. im immuned to it. i tink my sis is nt yet. it takes time. nw u noe y i can b this angry, full of hatred girl. lol haf u seen dat side of me yet?nah. im protective of anyone dat i care for. very protective.really i am, i stand up 4 those i care for but im nt bias. heh i once kicked some guy in d face 4 making fun of my dad's name. i was juz a little kid den. im still fren wif dat guy tho. lol. u can try me if u want to. n erm this is nt some plot from some sadistic story eh. n all dat was 7-8 yrs ago? im a totally different person nw. *wide grin*
wat can i say, im still fortunate to haf uncs n aunts to care n support me n my sis n my bro. but my life's pretty mundane. i do envy ppl wif parents, living juz by demself. having parents to care 4 every little things. sick, money, clothes? heh im nt dat lucky i guess. probably dats y i haf this tons of emotions in me, probably dat's y i cried alot when i was younger. im juz a kid hu's a crybaby, full of emotions. lol even the teachers knew bt it. lol. but nevertheless im thankful 4 being alive. juz wanna thank my uncs n my aunts. if nt 4 dem, i wld probably b lying on streets, suffering from an uncured asthma, inhaling frm the inhaler every few hrs. hmm mayb i wldnt even haf enuff money to buy an inhaler cos i wld b begging. lol hw imaginative can i b. im juz feeling fortunate. mayb one day i can repay dem.
and!! im suppose to b doing report writing! hw i forgot abt dat thing. shit. submission is next wed. heh. n i dun even noe hw to fill it in. my hse version is so diff from the latest 1 i did in skool.i dunno, dun feel lyk doing it. n the test is 40%!! bah. n i haven prepare my presentation yet n chester wanna go out tmr. so i still dunno. been junking frm morning, ate milo, choco ice cream, fruits n nuts choco, fried hot dogs n yeah maggi mee.didn haf any a proper meal cos im juz lazy.
bah i miss dr yap. lyk looking at his face. so much calmness n serenity.he make me smile whenever i think of him. i tink he's d best doc plus dr gan. really cool. miss dem both. but i dun feel lyk going back to ttsh after my mum's death. dun really noe hw to face dem. i hate hospitals nw. urgh i think i shld b doing either my presentation or my rwp. both sux. bah. my entry been really long nowadays ar. sorry.
i think my grandma brought me up well. nt dat im trying to say im an extremely good girl nw, juz dat watever i am now is bcos of her. she had this huge impact on my life. she taught me well, mayb it wasnt obvious but i learnt useful things bt life frm her. i've always looked up to her. her patience, her love for me, strong n silent yet soft, hw she raised 11 kids by herself. remembered i used to sit by her side n played wif her hair. talked 2 her till she fell aslp.hw everytime i wanna tie my hair, she wld do it 4 me. hw every morn b4 i went to skool she wld kissed me, my forehead n my cheeks. n den hugged me. i din really received dis kind of attention frm my mum but i nvr tot der was something missing in my life. my life den was pretty much filled wif love. only after she left i became D problematic child. lol yeah i was. i think me n my sis went thru shitty times together. well, when my mum was still arnd, at least i had someone to belif in, someone to stand up 4, someone 2 b der for. but i think, things changed. my sis n me belong to nowhere. nt dat im sad. im pretty much used to the way it is. im immuned to it. i tink my sis is nt yet. it takes time. nw u noe y i can b this angry, full of hatred girl. lol haf u seen dat side of me yet?nah. im protective of anyone dat i care for. very protective.really i am, i stand up 4 those i care for but im nt bias. heh i once kicked some guy in d face 4 making fun of my dad's name. i was juz a little kid den. im still fren wif dat guy tho. lol. u can try me if u want to. n erm this is nt some plot from some sadistic story eh. n all dat was 7-8 yrs ago? im a totally different person nw. *wide grin*
wat can i say, im still fortunate to haf uncs n aunts to care n support me n my sis n my bro. but my life's pretty mundane. i do envy ppl wif parents, living juz by demself. having parents to care 4 every little things. sick, money, clothes? heh im nt dat lucky i guess. probably dats y i haf this tons of emotions in me, probably dat's y i cried alot when i was younger. im juz a kid hu's a crybaby, full of emotions. lol even the teachers knew bt it. lol. but nevertheless im thankful 4 being alive. juz wanna thank my uncs n my aunts. if nt 4 dem, i wld probably b lying on streets, suffering from an uncured asthma, inhaling frm the inhaler every few hrs. hmm mayb i wldnt even haf enuff money to buy an inhaler cos i wld b begging. lol hw imaginative can i b. im juz feeling fortunate. mayb one day i can repay dem.
and!! im suppose to b doing report writing! hw i forgot abt dat thing. shit. submission is next wed. heh. n i dun even noe hw to fill it in. my hse version is so diff from the latest 1 i did in skool.i dunno, dun feel lyk doing it. n the test is 40%!! bah. n i haven prepare my presentation yet n chester wanna go out tmr. so i still dunno. been junking frm morning, ate milo, choco ice cream, fruits n nuts choco, fried hot dogs n yeah maggi mee.didn haf any a proper meal cos im juz lazy.
bah i miss dr yap. lyk looking at his face. so much calmness n serenity.he make me smile whenever i think of him. i tink he's d best doc plus dr gan. really cool. miss dem both. but i dun feel lyk going back to ttsh after my mum's death. dun really noe hw to face dem. i hate hospitals nw. urgh i think i shld b doing either my presentation or my rwp. both sux. bah. my entry been really long nowadays ar. sorry.
okay i wont b doing any thinking today. haha try nt to eh.
i think i'll doing my work today, dun tink joining chester.
urgh this mon i got presentation. n i haf nt prepared anything yet. i dun really noe wat to say. well of cos the concept thingy. but it seems distant to me, i cant remember anything. lol. n mine is arnd 4pm n i gt to come skool arnd 12. so i gt time to look at other's presentation n start cracking on mine. brain dead. i hate flashbacks. sometimes i wish i gt amnesia, where i can forget abt certain things. wat u dunno wont hurt u rite? certain stuffs lyk feelings towards somebody dat u wish to forget, or certain ppl dat i juz wish to erase frm my history, or juz clean forget abt everything where i can start afresh.lyk wat amber said, when she gt blindfolded.when u dunno wats happening arnd u, u can juz b urself, live in ur own world. but den again, all this hurtful memories r partly d ones dat made me wat i am now.life is full of contradictions.heh mayb i shld wish 4 a time machine? haha im such a sadistic bitch. okay i shall nt b all sad n broody.*grins*
oh yah, caught The Terminal. haha damn hilarious, the whole cinema was roaring wif laughter but den again der was only 10-15 ppl? so i dunno.n the ending sucks.abit unexpected.Catherine zeta-jones is sooooooooooooooooooooooo pretty *drools* love her to bits! basically in the cinema, me n ches was practially drooling when she appeared. lol bit of exaggeration here but she's hot, gorgeous, alluring, everything!.n tom hank was good, he's juz funny wif his 3 frens. lol. if u wanna catch e show, juz dun expect a good ending. so dat's abt it. oh yah did i mention bt anaconda? lol the lead guy is damn hot too. nice bod. lol darn i forgot his name. i think i've gotten braver. in d past, i wld NVR watch this kind of show wif anyone in d cinema. i hate dat dawn of d dead. its juz s.t.u.p.i.d. period. hated it n still hate it. n i still wont watch shark shows in cinema. its a no no thing 4 me. im afraid i'l drown in d cinema.lol. so der it goes, no crocodile,sharks, deep ocean n stupid shows lyk dawn of the dead in d cinema 4 me. i'l end up crying in the cinema. lol trust me. been der, done dat. i noe its juz a show, but it's juz against my nature, it'll make me think n think n pity the human nature n think abt life's cycles n think n think n think.im juz fragile n i got water phobia.n i hate to c ppl getting eaten up upclose. anaconda wasnt dat bad cos i din c any blood. lol alrite gtg. need to do my work. probably it'l make me recall back wat to say on mon.
i think i'll doing my work today, dun tink joining chester.
urgh this mon i got presentation. n i haf nt prepared anything yet. i dun really noe wat to say. well of cos the concept thingy. but it seems distant to me, i cant remember anything. lol. n mine is arnd 4pm n i gt to come skool arnd 12. so i gt time to look at other's presentation n start cracking on mine. brain dead. i hate flashbacks. sometimes i wish i gt amnesia, where i can forget abt certain things. wat u dunno wont hurt u rite? certain stuffs lyk feelings towards somebody dat u wish to forget, or certain ppl dat i juz wish to erase frm my history, or juz clean forget abt everything where i can start afresh.lyk wat amber said, when she gt blindfolded.when u dunno wats happening arnd u, u can juz b urself, live in ur own world. but den again, all this hurtful memories r partly d ones dat made me wat i am now.life is full of contradictions.heh mayb i shld wish 4 a time machine? haha im such a sadistic bitch. okay i shall nt b all sad n broody.*grins*
oh yah, caught The Terminal. haha damn hilarious, the whole cinema was roaring wif laughter but den again der was only 10-15 ppl? so i dunno.n the ending sucks.abit unexpected.Catherine zeta-jones is sooooooooooooooooooooooo pretty *drools* love her to bits! basically in the cinema, me n ches was practially drooling when she appeared. lol bit of exaggeration here but she's hot, gorgeous, alluring, everything!.n tom hank was good, he's juz funny wif his 3 frens. lol. if u wanna catch e show, juz dun expect a good ending. so dat's abt it. oh yah did i mention bt anaconda? lol the lead guy is damn hot too. nice bod. lol darn i forgot his name. i think i've gotten braver. in d past, i wld NVR watch this kind of show wif anyone in d cinema. i hate dat dawn of d dead. its juz s.t.u.p.i.d. period. hated it n still hate it. n i still wont watch shark shows in cinema. its a no no thing 4 me. im afraid i'l drown in d cinema.lol. so der it goes, no crocodile,sharks, deep ocean n stupid shows lyk dawn of the dead in d cinema 4 me. i'l end up crying in the cinema. lol trust me. been der, done dat. i noe its juz a show, but it's juz against my nature, it'll make me think n think n pity the human nature n think abt life's cycles n think n think n think.im juz fragile n i got water phobia.n i hate to c ppl getting eaten up upclose. anaconda wasnt dat bad cos i din c any blood. lol alrite gtg. need to do my work. probably it'l make me recall back wat to say on mon.
Friday, September 10, 2004
hmm been trying to update but to no avail well until now.
been trying to upload this song,im Shaking by Rooney. really nice. but i cant cos of some prob. will try again later mayb when im free.
i resent going home nowadays. it feels shitty. lol dun ask y.
been going out ever since i got home on wed. i feel weird. i haven gt ameera any present yet. heh n im really really broke. serious.
im juz tired. tired of everything. my mind's been on whirlwind ever since 24th august.
recently i had this weird drm, n it kept bugging me till nw. i was in this place where i tot seems familiar, prob an office where i used to work at. i tink it looked lyk ttsh. den suddenly the place changed. the layout of it all changed n i dun regconise anything at all. i heard dey were upgrading the office n so everything became white. i felt weird, strange. i was thinking it(the changed office) din matter anyway since im nt gonna work der anymore. but somehw i felt i gonna b der for long. hmm dunno lah. i juz feel weird bt the drm. its lyk as tho der is this change of level, or awareness of something. a change of feeling towards something. nvm.
anyway one of e interpretation:
White
White represents purity, perfection, peace, innocence, dignity, cleanliness, awareness, and new beginnings. You may be experiencing a reawakening or have a fresh outlook on life. However, in Eastern cultures, white is associated with death and mourning.
bah im tired. going to slp.
been trying to upload this song,im Shaking by Rooney. really nice. but i cant cos of some prob. will try again later mayb when im free.
i resent going home nowadays. it feels shitty. lol dun ask y.
been going out ever since i got home on wed. i feel weird. i haven gt ameera any present yet. heh n im really really broke. serious.
im juz tired. tired of everything. my mind's been on whirlwind ever since 24th august.
recently i had this weird drm, n it kept bugging me till nw. i was in this place where i tot seems familiar, prob an office where i used to work at. i tink it looked lyk ttsh. den suddenly the place changed. the layout of it all changed n i dun regconise anything at all. i heard dey were upgrading the office n so everything became white. i felt weird, strange. i was thinking it(the changed office) din matter anyway since im nt gonna work der anymore. but somehw i felt i gonna b der for long. hmm dunno lah. i juz feel weird bt the drm. its lyk as tho der is this change of level, or awareness of something. a change of feeling towards something. nvm.
anyway one of e interpretation:
White
White represents purity, perfection, peace, innocence, dignity, cleanliness, awareness, and new beginnings. You may be experiencing a reawakening or have a fresh outlook on life. However, in Eastern cultures, white is associated with death and mourning.
bah im tired. going to slp.
Thursday, September 09, 2004
heh juz received a call from someone. he asked me to take care of myself. was touched. argh i hate to say this. i still really do miss my mum. i've been thinking bt her. no doubt bt dat. thought bt her every nite without fail...
sometimes, i woke up, nt believing wat happen 2 weeks ago was real. i hate to type this down in my blog. i miss her alot. miss her laughter, her smile, her winks. i need her badly.. to keep me strong...she was definitely e sunshine in my life, dat kept me going. im nt mood 4 anything.
shit stuffs been happening arnd me. i feel lyk im an outsider, im stayin in someone else hse, always feeling unwanted. d reason y i stayed on was bcos of my late mum. d reason i stayed strong n kept quiet was also bcos of her. but i think i totally blew it off today.i knew it was my mistake but she juz gt to say it out.made me feel unwanted. made a mess of my room juz to vent her anger. mayb she said it out of anger. but i tink i noe her better. nvr really like her ever since i met her. juz being nice to her 4 my uncs sake. heh. mayb i shld juz keep quiet. let watever will be, will be.
i was juz thinking, dat mayb now, my mum is no longer arnd, i tink i wanna move out of this hse once i graduate frm poly. any1 wanna bunk it wif me? heh. its better dat way i guess. i wanna live independently. watever it is. i leave it to fate. my life will get better i guess.
haha yesterday was a grt day n today is a shitty day. wat can i say. life's unpredictable. one moment someone can b an angel, next moment dat person can b a devil. heh. two faced crap. earlier on i had so much things to mention here but i guess i dun tink its rite. juz partial of it to make myself better.
sometimes, i woke up, nt believing wat happen 2 weeks ago was real. i hate to type this down in my blog. i miss her alot. miss her laughter, her smile, her winks. i need her badly.. to keep me strong...she was definitely e sunshine in my life, dat kept me going. im nt mood 4 anything.
shit stuffs been happening arnd me. i feel lyk im an outsider, im stayin in someone else hse, always feeling unwanted. d reason y i stayed on was bcos of my late mum. d reason i stayed strong n kept quiet was also bcos of her. but i think i totally blew it off today.i knew it was my mistake but she juz gt to say it out.made me feel unwanted. made a mess of my room juz to vent her anger. mayb she said it out of anger. but i tink i noe her better. nvr really like her ever since i met her. juz being nice to her 4 my uncs sake. heh. mayb i shld juz keep quiet. let watever will be, will be.
i was juz thinking, dat mayb now, my mum is no longer arnd, i tink i wanna move out of this hse once i graduate frm poly. any1 wanna bunk it wif me? heh. its better dat way i guess. i wanna live independently. watever it is. i leave it to fate. my life will get better i guess.
haha yesterday was a grt day n today is a shitty day. wat can i say. life's unpredictable. one moment someone can b an angel, next moment dat person can b a devil. heh. two faced crap. earlier on i had so much things to mention here but i guess i dun tink its rite. juz partial of it to make myself better.
haha here i am trying to blog. i slpt arnd 9 yest cos i tot of waking arnd 10 mayb to juz update my blog but it was unsuccessful as u can c. lol i juz woke up.i had a good slp. wonderful.
anyway let me juz update wat happened 4 the last 3 days...
1st Day, Mon
-meet up wif candy n vic. went to buy some stuffs. lol i dun wanna say anything. im such a blur person. bah den went to eat breakfast at bk wif dem. reached jurong east first tho we were lyk really taking our time. heh
-the trust walk of cos! went to pick up the seniors at jurong east n blindfolded dem. dey were so unprepared. lol especially amber. lol den walked dem to Chevrons but got lost. n den this stupid protection officer wanted us to take off the blindfold from Ro n Amber at dat time. it was a no no thing so i asked whether we can get out of the place asap. so kaypo! i wanted to carry amber's bag 4 some reason but she was so determined to carry it on her own so yeah mission failed. lol ro kena instead.
-the captain ball in the water. it was gerek. lol tho i played for while, it was fun. all the stupid blunders dat everyone made. haha good way to bond.
-n lastly the movie marathon we had!! from i dunno wat time till 5+ am? haha fun. watched from one movie to another. oh yah watched the friends together. lyk finally i got to watch it n wat more can it better when im watching wif the angels. *grins*
2nd Day, Tues
- the captain ball in the water again! haha this tme it was much much more fun den the day b4. heh. the farah's disappearing act, the too committed suzi, and of cos farah's attempts to make the other team lose. lol it was grt fun. oh yeah my leg got cramp on both occasions. bah nevertheless thanks angels for making it gerek!
-the bbq. nazhan's a grt bbq-er + fei. haha to i missed some of the fun, i can say e food was delicious. lol n yeah the pasta, spicy but shiok eh. tok crap wif the seniors. reminiscing our previous camp n all those stuffs. haha nad n win came down. miss dem both alot.
-n the highlight of d day was of cos giving the souvenirs to the graduated ones.haha it was nice looking at their faces, gleaming. hope dey lyk their gifts.
-n the games we played. lol handyplast! had fun hitting dem. sorry ar suzi, adam, roz, amber n sab of cos. haha it was fun hitting u guys :p. i din seem to rotate much. all those constipated painful expressions. shld haf taken pics ar. i gt alot of blue blacks on my thighs niway. n the hi harry, yes harry n tell harry game. everyone was falling aslp in the midst of e game. cant help it lah. lol it was arnd 3-4 am at dat time. sab's totally blur queen. haha thanks ar sab for making the game laughable. n yeah we proceed to 1,2,3 get out game but it seems too laggy so yeah we moved on to mind games. lol i finally get dat "aunt mary died, did she die?" game. n so everyone went to slp.
-wanted to slp on d bed but due to some stupid things dat i dun wana mention it. best juz to forget ar.
3rd Day, Wed
-ameera's bday. miss dat little imp. haha cant wait to c her.
-the last day of cos. it was rather sad cos it had finally come to an end. i enjoyed the last two days alot. grt time spending wif the angels. did i mention the tshirts? haha it was really nice.i lyk the tshirt, i lyk the collar n the sleeves. i juz gt a thing for this kind of tshirts. those round collars n sleeves.
-went 2 eat breakfast wif vic,candy n roz. i m nt a happy person when its morning. sorry bt dat ar. need some time to warm up. den we went home together. n i met chester after putting my stuffs at home. wanted to catch anaconda but i din want to or mayb it was rather too late to watch it. so we went to eat dinner n walked arnd instead.. haha. going out together again today i tink. this time mayb we'l catch the show.
and here i am wif ameera trying to take pics of me wif my hp n laffing at herself cos she got a pic of me. kids r self entertaining. the chalet was grt. i miss the babes in skool! haha saw shereen at imm! was so happy n she told me bt some stuffs dat she was soooooooo excited bt. lol wait till skool reopens, bet she got lotsa stuffs to tell. well im going to teleport to somewhere elz now. heh
anyway let me juz update wat happened 4 the last 3 days...
1st Day, Mon
-meet up wif candy n vic. went to buy some stuffs. lol i dun wanna say anything. im such a blur person. bah den went to eat breakfast at bk wif dem. reached jurong east first tho we were lyk really taking our time. heh
-the trust walk of cos! went to pick up the seniors at jurong east n blindfolded dem. dey were so unprepared. lol especially amber. lol den walked dem to Chevrons but got lost. n den this stupid protection officer wanted us to take off the blindfold from Ro n Amber at dat time. it was a no no thing so i asked whether we can get out of the place asap. so kaypo! i wanted to carry amber's bag 4 some reason but she was so determined to carry it on her own so yeah mission failed. lol ro kena instead.
-the captain ball in the water. it was gerek. lol tho i played for while, it was fun. all the stupid blunders dat everyone made. haha good way to bond.
-n lastly the movie marathon we had!! from i dunno wat time till 5+ am? haha fun. watched from one movie to another. oh yah watched the friends together. lyk finally i got to watch it n wat more can it better when im watching wif the angels. *grins*
2nd Day, Tues
- the captain ball in the water again! haha this tme it was much much more fun den the day b4. heh. the farah's disappearing act, the too committed suzi, and of cos farah's attempts to make the other team lose. lol it was grt fun. oh yeah my leg got cramp on both occasions. bah nevertheless thanks angels for making it gerek!
-the bbq. nazhan's a grt bbq-er + fei. haha to i missed some of the fun, i can say e food was delicious. lol n yeah the pasta, spicy but shiok eh. tok crap wif the seniors. reminiscing our previous camp n all those stuffs. haha nad n win came down. miss dem both alot.
-n the highlight of d day was of cos giving the souvenirs to the graduated ones.haha it was nice looking at their faces, gleaming. hope dey lyk their gifts.
-n the games we played. lol handyplast! had fun hitting dem. sorry ar suzi, adam, roz, amber n sab of cos. haha it was fun hitting u guys :p. i din seem to rotate much. all those constipated painful expressions. shld haf taken pics ar. i gt alot of blue blacks on my thighs niway. n the hi harry, yes harry n tell harry game. everyone was falling aslp in the midst of e game. cant help it lah. lol it was arnd 3-4 am at dat time. sab's totally blur queen. haha thanks ar sab for making the game laughable. n yeah we proceed to 1,2,3 get out game but it seems too laggy so yeah we moved on to mind games. lol i finally get dat "aunt mary died, did she die?" game. n so everyone went to slp.
-wanted to slp on d bed but due to some stupid things dat i dun wana mention it. best juz to forget ar.
3rd Day, Wed
-ameera's bday. miss dat little imp. haha cant wait to c her.
-the last day of cos. it was rather sad cos it had finally come to an end. i enjoyed the last two days alot. grt time spending wif the angels. did i mention the tshirts? haha it was really nice.i lyk the tshirt, i lyk the collar n the sleeves. i juz gt a thing for this kind of tshirts. those round collars n sleeves.
-went 2 eat breakfast wif vic,candy n roz. i m nt a happy person when its morning. sorry bt dat ar. need some time to warm up. den we went home together. n i met chester after putting my stuffs at home. wanted to catch anaconda but i din want to or mayb it was rather too late to watch it. so we went to eat dinner n walked arnd instead.. haha. going out together again today i tink. this time mayb we'l catch the show.
and here i am wif ameera trying to take pics of me wif my hp n laffing at herself cos she got a pic of me. kids r self entertaining. the chalet was grt. i miss the babes in skool! haha saw shereen at imm! was so happy n she told me bt some stuffs dat she was soooooooo excited bt. lol wait till skool reopens, bet she got lotsa stuffs to tell. well im going to teleport to somewhere elz now. heh
Sunday, September 05, 2004
argh, having a diff time to pack. dunno wat to bring. heh. im quite excited bt the camp. nt really sure wat's gonna b. lol training + leisure. dunno hw it'll turn out.
haven pack my stuffs yet. mayb tmr morning.
im in no mood to update. things r juz too shitty now.
niway im gonna miss u alot chester. really alot. u cant stay pissed at me 4 too long.
love you anyway...things juz gt shittier n shittier ever since my late mum's death.
i dunno y. my mind n my heart is juz somewhere else. somewhere wif my mum.
im sorry. niway im tired after e whole day's happenings. pack tmr morning lah. heh
haven pack my stuffs yet. mayb tmr morning.
im in no mood to update. things r juz too shitty now.
niway im gonna miss u alot chester. really alot. u cant stay pissed at me 4 too long.
love you anyway...things juz gt shittier n shittier ever since my late mum's death.
i dunno y. my mind n my heart is juz somewhere else. somewhere wif my mum.
im sorry. niway im tired after e whole day's happenings. pack tmr morning lah. heh
Saturday, September 04, 2004
heh. finally today has come. haha submission is over for nw. im so relieved tho im stil abit worried. im a paranoid girl lah.haven been updating cos was too busy doing my work. m tired nw. all thos late nite work. n it is only 5% of the whole yr. 5% is lyk only 5 marks out of 100. even if i do well, it can only b 3 marks? n i had a major breakdown, everything was hitting me at a go.someone said something which he din mean it. i was prolly too sensitive. i wanted to do well, n i was kind of struggling ever since 24th august. i tot i was weak. i hope wat u said was true, dat im nt cos i deserve some credits.bah. its okay dear...n yeah prolly im still a kid, juz lyk u eh vic.
feeling guilty, cos i kind "ditched" vic n candy? sorry babes, had to do wat i had to do. :)anyway,went to eat lunch wif chester n den went to walk all d way to clarke quay frm city hall. kind of our fav place to hang out. went arnd looking at figurines n toys. i lyk this shop called SpawnAsia.com. dey got cool figurines wif intricate details.mostly collectible ones. very nice. solid. wanted to get this elvis presley figurine, $22.90. damn cool. but i scared at nite it will go dancing arnd.lol so i din buy. din wanna get too addictive to it. niway saw something dat made me kind of pissed off. lol cunning lady. but i tink dats hw dey make business. shall nt go into details bt it.
went home after walking arnd clarke quay. too tired to continue. chester sent me hm n accompanied me cos i wont b seeing him till wed?tink so. lol or mayb he'll juz drop by n find me. his hse is near anyway. i took a nap n den ate crabs. superb tho my lips gt swollen. tink im allergic to it but nice. den watched dat heavenly sword n dragon sabre wif ches. lol funny show but the girl is pretty. so practically i spent e whole day wif ches. gonna miss him.
but im looking forward to the camp. i hope der is no swimming or watever. nt dat i cant swim but i hate water especially sea water. n i still haven decide wat to bring. heh.
ameera n amirul wont b arnd 4 lyk 1 wk? dey went to johor n stay wif their grandma. missing dem already. its very quiet nw. bah. i miss my mum.been thinking bt her inbetween my work. even ches agreed dat the hse is definitely quieter nw without her. she loved to tickle me n ches. i can only cherish e memories nw.
really miss her alot...nw dat submission is over, nt sure wat to keep myself busy wif...
miss her very much...been tinking bt her really alot. her smell seems to linger arnd d hse...i shld haf taken care of her more...bah. wat's done cant b undone. i noe dat.
n yeah i'll miss the babes in d class. one week eh! so long, cant tok crap wif shereen, fiza n aish.
at least i can still get to c ches. heh. niway candle princess, if ur reading dis, ches wan u to bring him along when ur buying e jacket. i tink he probably was joking. niway dat's all.
feeling guilty, cos i kind "ditched" vic n candy? sorry babes, had to do wat i had to do. :)anyway,went to eat lunch wif chester n den went to walk all d way to clarke quay frm city hall. kind of our fav place to hang out. went arnd looking at figurines n toys. i lyk this shop called SpawnAsia.com. dey got cool figurines wif intricate details.mostly collectible ones. very nice. solid. wanted to get this elvis presley figurine, $22.90. damn cool. but i scared at nite it will go dancing arnd.lol so i din buy. din wanna get too addictive to it. niway saw something dat made me kind of pissed off. lol cunning lady. but i tink dats hw dey make business. shall nt go into details bt it.
went home after walking arnd clarke quay. too tired to continue. chester sent me hm n accompanied me cos i wont b seeing him till wed?tink so. lol or mayb he'll juz drop by n find me. his hse is near anyway. i took a nap n den ate crabs. superb tho my lips gt swollen. tink im allergic to it but nice. den watched dat heavenly sword n dragon sabre wif ches. lol funny show but the girl is pretty. so practically i spent e whole day wif ches. gonna miss him.
but im looking forward to the camp. i hope der is no swimming or watever. nt dat i cant swim but i hate water especially sea water. n i still haven decide wat to bring. heh.
ameera n amirul wont b arnd 4 lyk 1 wk? dey went to johor n stay wif their grandma. missing dem already. its very quiet nw. bah. i miss my mum.been thinking bt her inbetween my work. even ches agreed dat the hse is definitely quieter nw without her. she loved to tickle me n ches. i can only cherish e memories nw.
really miss her alot...nw dat submission is over, nt sure wat to keep myself busy wif...
miss her very much...been tinking bt her really alot. her smell seems to linger arnd d hse...i shld haf taken care of her more...bah. wat's done cant b undone. i noe dat.
n yeah i'll miss the babes in d class. one week eh! so long, cant tok crap wif shereen, fiza n aish.
at least i can still get to c ches. heh. niway candle princess, if ur reading dis, ches wan u to bring him along when ur buying e jacket. i tink he probably was joking. niway dat's all.